MY WONDERFUL BLUE (Lesbian stories)

Chapter 6 (unedited)

"its over"

I said the words I typed the words I regret most, I know it makes no sense to Lynn but it had to be done

I had think going on I'm my life that I can't drag her in, my fucked up life she doesn't deserve that she is a sweet girl will child like innocence that amazes me.

I love Lynn but I wasn't going to put her through an awful relationship where she won't talk to me for days on end no I could do that to her so I did the next best thing , I broke up with her shielding her from the chaotic world we live in. at the time I though it was the best idea how wrong was I but I did not change my mind because she deserves better I'm not good enough.

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Everything that happened to me shaped how I was in that relationship, how i felt about myself, who I trust and who I disliked . how hard I tried and why I gave up so easily, everything and there is nothing I can do about it.

This book shows how broken I am made that relationship ended it made me see that I am nothing more than I washed rag doll, and I'm OK with that I'm tainted and I'm going to rid the world of the waste that is me.