girls • lil peep [✔️]

twenty-two

(a/n): i did not forget about this book! i haven't been updating because of finals. but thankfully, they are over now and it's summer! expect more updates :)

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i wake up around two in the afternoon. last night was crazy, i got shit faced and i was on so many different drugs, i don't know how i woke up alive.

gus's arm was snugly wrapped around me, which was comforting. i've gotten so used to falling asleep next to him, it'd feel foreign without him by my side at night.

i was honestly just ready to get to the airport and get to seattle. i was beyond excited to see gus perform, i knew how talented he was. i knew that he would do an amazing job. the show was sold out, it was evident that he had many fans and i could see why. he was good at what he did. he was good at speaking to people through his music.

gus suddenly shifts, sitting up. i sit up next to him, looking at him and smiling. "good morning babe" i say, kissing him on the cheek. "hey baby." he says, rolling out of bed and putting on a pair of pants.

"we got to go soon. airport security is a bitch and we can't be late" gus says, running his hand through his hair. i smile, getting up and heading to the bathroom. everything of mine was already packed and ready to go, i just had to put clothes on.

i brush my teeth, washing my face and putting on moisturizer. i walk out of the bathroom, grabbing a shirt of gus's, some leggings and slides to put on. i wasn't going to dress up to get on a plane, i'm not a crackhead.

i get dressed, grabbing my phone, headphones and charger and walking downstairs. everyone's things were already in the car, tracy, lily and gus were ready to go.

"are you guys fucking ready!?" tracy shouts, grabbing his car keys. we all nod and laugh at his excitement, heading out to the car.

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by the time we got to the airport it was three thirty. we had an hour and a half before we had to board the plane. but, we still had to go through security and put our bags through baggage check so they could be on the plane.

me and gus were smoking a cigarette together before we had to go inside. tracy and lily already started bringing in our bags, so i just had to bring in my carry-on, which would be bombarded through when we went through airport security which is a complete pain in the ass. every time i go through it, they always thing i have some sort of drugs on me.

"babe here, take some xans. it'll help you sleep." gus says, pulling a baggie with xans in it out of his pocket. there were six, three for me and three for him i guess. i take them, putting them in my mouth and swallowing them down with a gulp of water.

"you ready to go scarlet? we needa get through security before the xans kick in. and our flight is leaving really soon." he says, stepping on his cigarette that he just threw on the ground. 

"yea, lets go get this security shit over with." i say, groaning. 

gus throws the now empty zip-lock bag on the ground, grabbing my hand and walking inside with me. i quickly scouted out lily and tracy, walking over to them as they waited in the longish security line.

"lily have you ever flown before?" i ask, trying to start conversation. 

"i used to fly hella a lot, my dad was in the army so we moved every few months. it was kinda ass because every time i made friends we'd up and leave again." she says, flipping her hair over her shoulder.

we finally get to the front of the line, each of us going to different guards to check us in. the security guard asked for shit like my age, full name and birthday. she also took my ticket to look at it and make sure its real i guess, but she gave it back to me after i got done with her.

then we all had to put our shoes, bags and phones in buckets and it had to go through some machine. we also had to stand in a machine so they could make sure we were clean and shit i guess.

security took about twenty minutes after we got through the line, so now we were walking to our terminal which was really close to security and we got there just on time because our flight was boarding.

me and gus ended up sitting next to each other, i got the window seat. tracy and lily were sitting in the row next to us because there were only three seats in a row. 

before i knew it, the plane was taking off and we were in the air. my hand was gripping onto gus as i felt the pills kick in. it felt good, and i felt relaxed as fuck. i loved drugs, i absolutely loved them.

"i love you baby." i say, drifting off to sleep as the big machine soars through the sky.