5/5/2018
I can't stop thinking
What if they're talking about me
I blare music in my ears
In a poor attempt to make the voices stop
Its not working
Someone please make them stop
I can't stop shaking
I don't have a reason to feel this way
Why
Why can't they just shut up
For once in my life
Why can't the voices stop
I shouldn't be feeling like this
"Anxiety isn't real, you're just a weak person..."
Words
Words rattle around in my head
"Stupid, weak, faggot, little girl, slow"
Everything that I've ever been called all comes back to me
Screaming inside my head
Peoples laughter comes into my head
I don't even know whose it is
It's unbearable
Yet somehow I live with it
I live with all of this
And more
My paranoia doesn't quit
It's always there
I am a strong warrior
I've been through storms and made it out the other side
But every warrior has their Achilles heel
This is mine
I live through the pain of it
And it strengthens me
But sometimes it feels like it's breaking me instead
But I will get stronger
I will live through it
And come out of the storm
Stronger than ever
Even if I break in the middle of the storm
I will be stronger than ever
When I come out the other side
Okay people. This one is...its probably the most personal thing that I will ever publish to be completely honest. That's all I have to say.
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