How Sweet It Is: Jonah Beck

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Cyrus and I wake up to our alarm which meant that it was time to get ready for our group hangout at The Spoon, we get dressed then head out

When we get to The Spoon we all sit down Buffy, Andi, and Tj on one side then Cyrus, me, and Jonah on the other in that exact order, everyone is acting really normal having fun, laughing, well everyone other than Jonah "Hey Jonah, can we talk?" I ask "Uh sure" he says so I pull him outside where no one else can hear

"Jonah what happened last night?" I ask "I don't want to talk about it" he says trying to walk back inside but I grab him arm stopping him "I'm sorry Jonah but I'm not gonna accept that as an answer" I say so he walks back over to me "Please drop it" he says calmly and by now our whole table is watching us even though they can't hear "No, Jonah why won't you tell me what is going on that is so bad that you can't talk to me?" I ask "I don't want to tell you" he says "Why?" I ask "Because you'll think of me different, I think of me different" he says so I take both of his hands in mine "Jonah there is nothing you can say to me that will make me think any differently of you because trust me there are so many thing I could tell you that would make you think differently of me" I say "If I tell you will you tell me something?" he asks "If it'll get you to talk to me then yes" I say "And you promise not to think of me different?" he asks "Cross my heart" I say "Last night I had a panic attack and your dad said that I might have anxiety issues" he says looking down so I do the only thing I can think of to make him feel better, I hug him, a hug in which he returns immediately "You're hugging me" he says shocked "I am" I say "So you don't think of me different?" he asks so I pull away from him and at this point tears are sliding down both of our faces "Jonah I deal with anxiety issues every day of my life, yesterday when I stayed home it's because the day before I had a panic attack at school so I took a mental health day you're not alone Jonah I'm here for you and I know what you're going through" I say "You do?" he says "Yeah it's an everyday struggle for me" I say "Does it ever get any better?" he asks "It can if you stick with your friends if you stick with me especially" I say "Is your anxiety part of the reason why you won't hug me?" he asks "Sorta" I say "What do you mean?" he asks and I start sobbing so he hugs me "Everything's gonna be okay" he says "Jonah I need you to promise me you won't look at me differently" I say pulling away from him still crying really hard "I promise" he say grabbing my hands "When I was ten my mom dated this guy and he did things to me things that haunt me every day if my life so it's hard for me to trust guys or let them touch me" I say "Oh my god Little Flower I'm so sorry" he says wrapping his arms tightly around me rubbing my back "Jonah please don't let me go" I say "I'm never letting you go ever" he says as we cry in each other's arms for s good ten minutes till we calm down "I'm sorry for acting like such a bad dude recently" he says "It's okay you had a lot going on" I say "So you forgive me?" he asks "Of course I do" I say "Please don't tell the others" he says "I won't Jonah even though they won't think any different of you" I say "I know I know" he says "Jonah if you ever feel alone or feel an attack coming on I want you to call me or text me okay?" I say rubbing his hand with my thumb "Okay" he says "Are you okay?" I ask "As long as I have you I'll never not be okay" he says making me blush "That was smooth Jonah" I say "What can I say I have quite an effect on women" he says "Yeah those girls at the party last night really liked you" I say "Aw is someone jealous" he says "Maybe a little" I say "Well don't be I didn't like them anyway" he says "Okay" I say "Should we go back in?" He asks "Yeah probably" I say laughing so we walk back into The Spoon sitting back down

"Are you guys okay?" Andi asks "Yeah" I say looking at Jonah smiling "Yeah" he says smiling back "Well my mom needs us home for Bat Mitzvah planning so we will see you guys tomorrow" Cyrus says as we leave The Spoon walking home

"Okay what happened?" he asks "I can't tell you what happened with Jonah but I can tell you that I told Jonah everything" I say "What do you mean by everything?" he asks "I mean everything" I say "I'm proud of you" he says "Thanks" I say as we walk into the house

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Cyrus and I have officially finished planning my Bat Mitzvah for tomorrow so I decide to text Jonah

Little Flower
Hey:)

Jon
Hey:)

Little Flower
I finally finished planning for tomorrow
This Bat Mitzvah is gonna be epic

Jon
I sure hope so
You owe me a dance Little Flower

Little Flower
I would be delighted to dance with you

Jon
You're gonna look pretty in the dress I picked

Little Flower
Stop
I'm blushing

Jon
Good
I'll see you tomorrow
Goodnight my Little Flower

Little Flower
Goodnight Jon

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After that I payed with Cyrus watching The Office until I became tired eventually falling asleep