pretty | jung jaehyun

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jung jaehyun,

it all makes sense, i guess. you really don't care about me. i could disappear one day and you wouldn't even notice.
wow, i can't believe this whole time i thought i actually meant
something to you.
i was such a delusional fool to think
that i stood a chance.
it's not like i'm blaming you... after all
that girl is a thousand times
prettier than me.
we all love looking at beautiful people.
it's in our dna, right?
i love looking at you
because you are beautiful.
what if i were beautiful too?
what if my skin was smoother and my thighs smaller? what if i were at least half as pretty as her?
would you give me the slightest bit of attention, then?
all of these questions gave me an idea.
maybe i should skip school for a few weeks, lose some weight, learn how to use makeup
and cover up all of my flaws.
when i'm back to school,

will you finally look at me the way you look at her, jung jaehyun?