Love You Long Time (Duncan Keith)

44| Best Man

Duncan

"Okay... how does this sound" I ask as I stand up on a platform. People surround me try to measure my arms and waist and chest for a suit for my wedding and I read off a paper in front of me to whoever was willing to listen. "When I first met you you were like a dream I had with my eyes open" I start.

"Seriously" Brent asks as he stops me. "That's what you want to start with" he asks. I see Sharpy snicker as he too was getting fitted for a suit.

"Not anymore" I mumble.

"Alyssa is a song writer for fucks sake. You can't come out with the weak cheesy stuff. You know that she's going to have something amazing" Sharpy says.

"Don't remind me" I sigh. "Then what do you suggest I do" I wonder.

"Say it with your heart. She means so much to you and I know it's hard to put it into words. But no one makes you speak like she does. What does she make you feel like" he questions.

"She makes me feel like... she makes me fee unlike anything I've ever felt before. Its hard to describe, it's just so strong and it's there every time I'm near her. I can confidently say I would take a bullet for her. I would quit hockey and never step foot on the ice again if she asked me to. Now I know she would never do that, she loves the hockey and you guys almost as much as I do. But if I ever had to decide between her and hockey, it's her every single time.

I know I don't deserve a second chance with her. Hell... I don't even know if I deserve a first chance with her. I thank god every day for letting me have something I don't necessarily deserve. She is and always will be better than anything I could ever ask for. Sometimes I gotta pinch myself because for so long she was just a dream. She was something that I could only have when I fell asleep. But my eyes are wide open and I don't want to miss a second of her being here with me once again. I always want to be with her, be around her. I never get tired of her.

And now that we're about to get married, it all seems so crazy. I mean after all we went through and had to fight through, we are still going to get married. After every shooting star and coin down the wishing well, after every prayer and birthday candle I finally can have the one thing that I wanted more than anything, that I needed more than anything. I finally get to marry the only girl in this world that I could happily spend the rest of my life with.

It's funny how when we were apart you all thought I was crazy. Thought I was stupid for turning girl after girl away simply because they weren't Alyssa, they were never going to be her. I would have waited my entire life for her, even if that meant I spent my last few days by her side. I always knew that we would end up together, I was just hoping it was going to be a long time.

You know, they say that if you love something let it go, if it was meant to be yours it will come back. She needed to go. I hurt her and she needed time for herself after she spent the last four years loving me. I had to let her go no matter how much it hurt me to do so. And now that she's back she's stronger, she's happier and I'm something that she wants, not something that she needs.

And that's why it's so hard for me to write these vows. It's hard to explain what she means to me. It's hard to explain just how much I need her. How much I want to marry her and how this means the world to me" I say looking at all the suits hanging around us.

"It sounds like your vowels will write themselves" Brent claims.

"What do you mean" I ask.

"I mean that there is no way in hell that you can write down your vows. Because I promise that as soon as you see her at the end of that isle with that dress on, you will forget how to read" he teases and I laugh. "Just go up there and be Duncan and Alyssa. That speaks for itself."

"So you're saying don't write out my vows" I ask.

"What you just said wasn't written down because it can't be written down. It was beautiful and from the heart and true. But you know as well as I do that you couldn't say it like that again" he reminds me.

"I guess. But I'm going to be nervous enough at the alter, do I really need to worry about this too" I ask.

"You'll be great. And if not she will love you anyways" he reminds me and I smile.

"Yeah. At least I got that going for me."

After I get all measured we pick out a few suits. I look at all the black ones before I find one I like. I pick out a icy blue vest and a black tie and have all the groomsmen try it on. My best man was Brent then Alyssa's brother, Sharpy and one of my childhood friends was my groomsmen. We all get fitted and agree on the suits before the day was done. I was on my way out before I feel someone grab my arm. I look up and see Brent holding on to me.

"Hey man. What's up" I wonder.

"I just wanted to tell you that I'm really happy for you" he claims.

"What? Didn't want to sound so soft in front of the guys" I tease.

"No. But they were more concerned about who's butt looked best in dress pants. And the answer is always Jonny" he jokes. "But in all seriousness, if you or Alyssa need anything let me know. Wedding or not I'll be here for you" he assures me.

"And this is why you're my best man."