the day I wrote this I was crying while writing it so I was very heated just some background lol
I really hate getting treated without the same respect as everyone's else get
Because I'm your kid I don't get the right to say shit
So I cry in the bathroom and let the pain go
Begging God to let me just grow
A couple years more so ill be able to leave
Be able to leave a prison I call home
Disconnected from the outside world no sunshine peeks in
I feel like my friends are slipping away where tf do I begin
I live in my sister shadow where ever the fuck I go
I just wanna move across the globe
Just let me fucking go
Let me leave this place that's giving me hell
Tears streaming down my face as I listen to the lyrics over and over again
I'm feeled with anguish , betrified to say shit
missed opportunities
Why is life so complicated
I was gifted a fucked up life
But hey atleast I'm living
Atleast I'm not on the streets begging for change or working the corner
But none of us asked for this life to begin with
I just don't get it
What is this lesson I'm suppose to learn
Why are you punishing me when this isn't my mistake
But I'm locked in a bathroom crying listening to a girl sing a song called limbo
saddest beautiful song i know
I cry but I smile I'm so fucked up
I don't know if I'm over exaggerating
But you wanna know something
I've been dealing with this on my own
build up stress, anger ,death
That's everything I felt alone
But I'm stuck in prison I call home
the sun doesn't peek through
and I feel alone
You might not understand the mistakes I made in the pass
I was the first sibling to skip class
And you bring it up every chance you get
You use it against me as a trick
get the fuck over it , that was the most fun thing I ever did and says alot coming from a 17 year old kid
I'm hurt
I'm feeled with anguish
I wanna travel the world but the only thing i travel is to my room to the basement
I can't take it
I'm finally ready to burst
Explode and say something
But I bite my tongue because i don't have the guts to say shit
why am I this way I simply don't understand
I could possibly make it better
I get the same disrespect over and over again and I continue to ignore it
I've asked for you help you wont give me shit I ask for signs every night but your not sending them.
What the fuck I'm so annoyed I just wanna be happy about life but really I wasted about 7 years of my life of reasons not my fault
I'm feeled with anguish
I'm in a prison I call home
the sun doesn't peek through
So I feel alone.
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