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I HAD MY WHOLE life planned out. After high school I would go to college, there I would meet the love of my life- I know that I have Alex but even I know that isn't going to last forever- after collage I will travel the world with the love of my life. When I get back I will get a job, get married, get 2 kids and then slowly get old and die when I'm 89 or something.

But all of that fell away when she said those nasty 4 words.

Nothing was constant anymore. Everything was a big question mark. My life completely changed.

'actually the worst kind of Leukemia you can have' she added and I felt a tear roll down my eye

'a- am I going to die?' my broken voice asked

'maybe' she tilted her head a little 'but 80% of all the kids that get Leukemia survive and live happily ever after'

'and wh- what will happen now?' my voice cracked every time I tried to say something.

'after this you will go home and process the fact that you have the worst kind of blood cancer. Tomorrow you can go to school, you can say goodbye to all your friends. after school you can pack a bag and then come here' she told me

'here? What do you mean here?' I frowned

'you need to be hospitalized, we first need to see how your body reacts on the chemo treatment. When your body accepts it you can have people over. The treatment will take about 2 or 3 months' she explained

'and then I can go home?'

She shook her head 'then you'll have to stay here. You're immune system will be very weak and you will be very tired. On good days you can maybe go outside but mostly you need to stay here and rest for the most of the time'

'and school?'

'that you need to figure out with your school. most of the people change into home school but some schools give lessons via the phone, whatever feels right for you and the school'

'okay' I sighed and looked at Nikki who was almost crying 'nik' I pulled her in a hug

'you have fucking cancer' she mumbled

'I'll be fine, 80% survives and I promise you that I will be part of that 80%' I told her

I know I'm being very positive of the fact that I just heard that I have cancer. But it's just in my blood, literally. I may be homeschooled but I hated that school anyway. And I don't need to miss my friends, they will come visit.

I know it's going to be hard but it also will be worth it.

My mom was fully sobbing in my dads arms.

'I thought I told you to be fine' Brian mumbles when I stand up from my bed and grab my bag.

You can see that this information was also a shock for him. Of course it is; his baby sister that he is so protective over has cancer.

'you can't have everything you want Ross' I chuckled and then pulled him in a hug. I call him Ross because he hates the show friends and especially the character Ross.

'well now you better not die' he mumbled

'I promise you I won't die' I also make him a promise I don't know if I'm going to keep. But I'll fight for it, I swear.

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The next day I went to school as the doctor told me too. Nikki picked me up and had been very protective over me.

'you know I'm still the same Ava, 3 little words don't change everything' I told her and she nods

'it only changes the fact that you might die' she spits out