i like to burn things

forever changed

you're right.
i'm not the same person i was before.
i'm completely and utterly different.
i used to be shy and quiet
i had nothing mean to say
i cared about people's feelings
i colored my hair crazy colors
but now.
i'm loud and mean,
i yell and scream,
i don't care what people think,
i don't even like the color pink,
i want to break down every minute
i use drugs to distract me from my problems,
and to be honest i'm unhappy.
happiness is the least of my worries,
when the addiction takes over,
and the withdrawal bring me back,
i am forever changed.
(Written August 4th 2018)