Supernatural Preferences and Imagines

From Me to You

Dean-

Dear Dean,

I'm sorry. Okay? I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what happened eight months ago on that hunt in Michigan. I shouldn't of risked you and your brothers lives to save that little girl. I remember it as clear as day, you yelling at me to stay the hell away from you and your brother and that you never wanted to see me again. You told me this in the hospital, with Sam laying in the hospital bed injured. I remember me rushing out of the room and out into the parking lot with tears streaming down my face. It was cold and rainy. I was freezing but I ran, and ran and ran until I couldn't run anymore.

When I stopped running, I was by a lake, on a bridge and I looked down into the water but the thing was I didn't think about jumping and ending my life. I thought about all the things I've been through as a hunter, all the things I've been through with you. Then I cried more. I sank to the cold, wet road and cried. Totally lame, right? 

I've never cried so hard in my life. I cried till my throat hurt, till my eyes were so red and my hands gripped the edge of the bridge. But then after a while of crying and cursing at myself and hating myself. I thought, why was I crying over something that I knew was right. Dean, I saved a little girls life! I did the right thing!

I got on my feet and I walked away from the bridge and the rain and the coldness and I walked up to the hospital parking lot. I walked up to your freaking "baby" and I kicked her as hard as I could. I don't know why I kicked your car once and walked away. It didn't even leave a dent. After that I walked and walked and walked. I walked away from the hospital and away from the car and away from the life I had before.

Where I stand now? Eight months later? Well to answer that question, I live in Seattle. 

I went to fire academy, I'm still in it but I only have a little ways to go before I become a firefighter! I have no words to describe how happy I am about my new job, and most of all, my new life. I am so proud of myself for picking myself up and not letting myself get so ruined over some guy. 

 Another thing I love, is the dog I got a couple weeks ago, I named him Sean, after you and Sam. I love my new car, sure it breaks a lot and it's kinda crappy but that's okay, it's better than driving around in the backseat of your baby. 

I miss you though. I miss you and Sammy. I miss what we had. And I miss you and your pie obsession.  I miss Castiel and his-well- his adorableness.

But most of all I miss you.

I'm sorry.

Like I've said a lot.

But, if you want to catch up again, you know where to find me. I will always love you, Dean Winchester.

Always,

Y/N, Y/L/N.

Sam-

Dear Sam,

Sam. Sweet Sam. A couple of months ago, we were together. You and I. Happy. But now we're not. I don't know what happened. But we just fell apart.

I got hurt on a case and you left me there. Alone. Hurt. Weaponless.

Three words Sam Winchester.

How could you?

I understand that I was hurt and unconscious but that does not mean you should of left me.

Well, I suppose you've finally guessed who sent you this letter, probably the handwriting or just pure smartness. It's me, Y/N.

Bet you thought I was dead right?

It's been a year after all.

Well no, for me it's been five weeks and a whole lot of stress.

 I just woke up from a coma five weeks ago from this day.

I've been in a coma for a year and most people thought I wasn't gonna make it. But boy I proved them wrong. I'm awake! I'm alive and better. I'm out of the hospital and I've started a new life here in Tulsa, Oklahoma.

I've been out of the hospital for about four weeks now I believe. And finally I'm writing you this letter. Finally.

Well for starters, you should know I'm going to start college next month. I'm finally gonna finish my nursing degree. It'll keep me busy. I'm a waitress at a restaurant for now, gotta pay for college somehow eh?

I'm also a YouTuber. I make plenty money so I can afford stuff, and I love being a YouTuber! I have so many subscribers that love and support me!

Something you never gave me.

I'm happy. I'm happy, for once in a very long time.

How are you though? Cas says your engaged now, who's the lucky girl?

I hope you deserve her, 'cause let's get one thing straight, you never and never will deserve me. I understood your crap, I stuck with you through everything, I smiled when you we're being the biggest dick to me. I, as some would say, was a keeper but you ruined that, you ruined us. 

Hope your happy.

Note the sarcasm.

Goodbye.

Y/N Y/L/N.

Castiel-

Dear Cas,

I hope you know I loved you way too much, because what you did was unforgivable.

I was dying.

Dying.

That car accident was horrible.

I was dying in that hospital bed with not even a 50% chance of survival. And all you did was watch, refusing to help me.

Why?

Why did you want me to die?

Was it because of our fight?

Was it because I was just a horrible girlfriend?

What was it?

Why didn't you want to help me when you knew you could? I just don't understand Cas. Why? I was there for you through everything! I never left your side if you were sick or inured or had a god forbid cold!

I answered every question you ever asked me. No matter how tired, or sick, or grumpy I was.

I have news for you, Castiel. I've moved on. 

I'm engaged. I got engaged about four weeks ago. A year after the accident I met an amazing man who treats me right. Who loves me and cares for me. We bought a small house in Orlando, Florida. He's a paramedic, he's the one who inspired me to study to become a paramedic as well. I'll get to heal people in my own way.

I have a new bestie who takes me out on girl nights, shopping, to the spa and I'm finally living a normal life.

I'm happy for the first time in a long time. 

 I'll see you when I see. Tell Dean and Sam that I miss them for me, would you?

-Y/N Y/L/N.

PS. I love you