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warning: this imagine deals with the topic of suicide! please don't read it if you are sensitive to the topic!

also, i just want to let you know that you're all smart, beautiful human beings and suicide is worst option if you're sad! please talk to someone if you feel like it's the only option, even me if you want to. i'm always here to listen if anyone needs a friend. thank you, guys.

i waited until i knew chanyeol was asleep before i attempted to get out of bed. he's a really heavy sleeper once he's out. i grabbed a piece of paper from the side table and quickly wrote a note out for him, just explaining what i was doing. i gently kissed his lips once, whispering an "i'm sorry, i love you" then left the room. i grabbed a pair of shoes from beside the door and took one last look at the apartment before leaving.

i walked up to the roof of the building and sat on the ledge, contemplating everything. life had just been so hard recently. i lost my job after 5 years of working so hard, my parents stopped talking to me for being with chanyeol, and we had just lost our first child. we'd had a miscarriage 3 months in. we were so excited to have a baby and everything got ripped away from us. i told chanyeol i was okay but i wasn't. i didn't feel like anything was worth it anymore. i loved chanyeol so much but even he wasn't able to make me feel better.

i looked over the edge of the building, down at the busy road below, and i knew what i had to do. there was no reason for me to stay anymore. i stood on the ledge and took the final step off.

only to be grabbed into someone's arms and pulled back onto the roof.

"let me go!" i screamed.

"no! stop!" i recognized that voice, i knew that voice. i loved that voice.

"let me go! i need to do this! let me die!" i cried.

"no, baby, no! you can't do that, you have to stay with me!" chanyeol said. i tried to escape his arms but he just tightened his grip on me and dragged me away from the edge.

"fuck off, chanyeol! i want to be with jiwoo! she needs me!" i said.

"she doesn't need you, she was never even born!" he said. i collapsed in his arms and finally let him pull me towards the door.

"you're such an asshole," i whispered.

"i'm sorry, baby, but i had to," he said. he sat down and wrapped his arms around me, holding me against his chest as i sobbed.

"i hate my life," i cried. "i have no reason to live anymore, i lost my job, we lost our baby, i have nothing left."

"you have me," chanyeol said.

"you deserve someone better than me, someone who can give you a baby and keep a stable job to support you."

"i don't care about those things, i love you and i want only you. you're my wife and i want to be with you forever. you can't leave me."

"i'm worthless, i can't even have a baby."

"honey, we'll have other chances to have a baby. it doesn't always work on the first time, we'll keep trying and it'll get better. and you'll find another job, a better one. i promise. killing yourself is the worst way to deal with sadness. we'll get through this together."

he stood up and gently lifted me up, too.

"come on, let's get you back home and we'll talk tomorrow, okay?" he said.

"okay," i said. he walked me back to the apartment and held me in bed until i calmed down and fell asleep.

i hope this wasn't too bad and that you get help if you need to ❤️

also, if you've ALREADY sent me a request, please send it again because i've lost all of the ones i already had 😂 again NO NEW REQUESTS JUST PREVIOUSLY SENT IN ONES! thank you :)