❤Depressed❤T.H

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You woke up to Tom snoring peacefully. You didn't want to wake him up even though it had to be late in the afternoon already. He hasn't gotten much sleep lately. He has been switching back and forth between sleeping 24/7 and then not sleeping at all. Right now he was in the phase of practically not sleeping at all. You wanted to make him breakfast, so he could start his day happy for the first time in weeks.

Recently, Tom had been really down. Whenever you make food, he doesn't eat anything. Which is weird because Tom loves food! (A/N- I couldn't see Tom Holland, so upset that he abandoned food LOL.) He never wants to go anywhere. He always just wants to stay home. He either sleeps or sits in silence. He hardly ever smiles and if he doesn't want to be alone, then he always wants to be holding you. He is super sad all the.

You tried to wiggle out of his arms, but wasn't successful. You decided to just lay there and let your fiancee sleep. Until you sneezed. Tom jolted awake and sighed.

Tom- "On my hand?"

You- "Sorry babe...."

Tom just sighed again and pulled you closer.

You- "I'm sorry.."

Tom- "-It's fine."

Now that he was awake, you decided to detach from him and make some breakfast. When you tried to move, Tom just sat up and put his face in his hands angrily.

Tom- "Fine! You obviously don't wanna be here with me!"

You- "No it's not like that, I promise, calm down, I just wanted to make breakfast for you."

Tom- "Whatever." Then he rolled his eyes and put his face back in his hands.

You- "Okay, enough! For the last week you have been lashing out at me for absolutely no reason! I have been at your beck and call and you have been treating me like crap. Since I love you, and won't stop loving you no matter how many times you freaking roll your eyes at me. I have been kind and understanding to you. Now it is your turn, Tom! What is going on baby?"

Tom looked at you with regret and guilt overwhelming his eyes.

Tom- "Love, you are so right. I am being a total Jerk to you for no reason. Thank you for being such an amazing fiancee. I love you."

He kissed you sweetly and smiled.

You- "What is going on babe? I love you too and that's why I am so worried about you."

Tom just looked down at his legs, sitting in a criss-cross position, and holding your small hands inside of his now.

Tom- "You're gonna leave me..."

You- "No I'm not baby, I would never leave you. What's wrong?"

Tom- "No one loves me anymore. You don't love me anymore, Harrison probably secretly hates me, he just doesn't want to hurt my feelings, so he hasn't told me. I became famous and accidentally pushed everyone away. My parents hate me, I am a disappointment to them. Sam and Harry hate me and Paddy probably wishes he had a better big brother. Tessa deserves a better father. I knew I would never be a good dad. That's why you don't wanna have kids with me-"

You- "Thomas Stanley Holland!"

Tom just started crying. Then you did. You couldn't handle your boyfriend crying. He rarely ever cries. You quickly stopped and pulled him into your arms. You petted his hair softly.

You- "Shh baby. Tom look at me."

Tom stopped his quiet crying and looked at you.

Tom- " Oh Darling, don't cry please I'm sorry."

You- "Thomas, I love you. I love you more than anything. You have brought happiness, excitement, and adventure into my life. No one I have ever met before has influenced my life as much as you have and still do. You are NOT a disappointment to your parents, nor anyone. Your parents love you so much. They are so proud of you for making such a life for yourself. Your brothers? I know for a fact, that Paddy ADORES you. He looks up to you SO much. I know for a fact the Sam and Harry look up to you like crazy. Sam talks about you all the time. So does Harry. And Harrison? Baby, If Harrison liked you any more, then he would be seriously gay. Harrison is your best friend and you could never push Harrison away, let alone your family. Let alone me, Tom. I will always Love you. Do you understand that? How could you say that I don't want to start a family with you? Do you really believe that? You don't understand how much that hurts, Tom."

Tom- "Love, I need you. I am so so sorry. I know my family loves me. I know Harrison loves me, and I know You love me. I am so sorry for falling apart on you like that. I just- I- I don't know why I felt like that for some reason. I am sorry for saying those things about you and us."

You- "Tom, Tessa loves you and you are an amazing owner to her. But, honey, is that REALLY the reason why you are upset? What you said about starting a family... Why didn't you just talk to me about that? I would LOVE to start a family with you. Tom, you would be an AMAZING dad."

Tom- " Darling, I am sorry for saying that. I just- I am so scared. I know you and you are this amazing, beautiful, confident and strong woman who would make literally the best mother. In the world! Then there's me, a-"

You- "Wonderful, strong, compassionate, and adorably sweet. You would be an amazing father and if you want marriage and kids then you have to tell me. I would love to start a family with you. In fact I wouldn't want to start a family with anyone else. I love you Tom. So much. Now don't ever think those things about yourself again. And if you do, tell me. That is what I am here for.

Tom- "I love you. You are so perfect. I want to be a dad, Y/N. I really want to be a dad."

You- "Okay. Then we will talk about children. But for now, can we please eat breakfast. Since you haven't eaten in like 5 days, neither have I and I swear it has been total hell for me. I miss food."

Tom- "Of course. Let's go out to eat. My treat. I love you, Darling."

You- "I love you too."


Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed this story! I have had someone send in a request for a more triggering story. It involves the reader not eating for a little but because she is insecure. I am gonna do the story but I thought I would do maybe 2 parts to the story. If that makes anyone triggered or upset, then just don't read the story. Things like that happen in real life and it isn't bad to make a story about it. Thanks for reading!

XoXo

Juliah

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