Made It (Jackson Imagine) (GOT7)

Chapter I

Dear Haeju,

We need to talk about what happened. I'm sorry we didn't get the chance to do so since I had to leave that night.. I tried to talk to you but you didn't answer the phone..

I'll be back monday but please, as soon as you read this letter, call me

Love you,
Jackson

That was what the card said. I still couldn't bring myself to call him since he had seen me in a complete new state.. he saw me drunk, I can't believe it..

I was terrified and embarrassed.

In case you're wondering, it's Wednesday and yes, he did call me a million times.. I was currently sleeping at Hyunji's since I really didn't want to see him right now.. I talked about almost everything to my friend, venting to her and she advised me to talk to him.. that if our relationship was really that important to me, I should trust him and talk to him

Hyunji was now making dinner for both of us and I was by the living room studying when someone rang the bell

"Haeju, can you go get it? I'm busy"

Thinking it was probably her roommate who had ADHD so probably forgot the keys, I stood up and went to the entrance not bothering to look through the hole

I opened the door and stared at the two chests in front of me, slowly moving my head upwards, I found first JB's face and then the one I didn't want to see

Jackson was mad to say the least. He crossed his arms across his chest while I tried to keep my tears in my eyes

"Hum.. Haeju.. can we.. can we talk to you?" JB asked while rubbing his hands

"How did you find me?.."

JB gulped and scratched his head while Jackson still stood against the door frame with his arms crossed, looking to the inside of the house, right past me

"I called them.." I heard behind me making me turn around

I looked at my friend who had a small worried smile on her face, probably trying to guess if I was mad at her for doing it or not

I slowly turned my head back almost like if I moved it slow enough, they would get bored and walk away, which was exactly what I was rooting for

"So.. can we come in?" JB asked cautiously

I looked at Jackson with tears in my eues but he didn't even budge from looking away from me. Feeling like I had no choice since they would never leave without talking, I gave in and took a step back opening the door wider

They got inside and Jackson didn't even acknowledge me. He went straight to Hyunji and greeted her leaving me in the cold.

They both sat down on the couch where I had been sleeping and Jackson pulled out his phone to avoid any type of confrontation there could be

"Do you guys want anything?" Hyunji carefully asked

JB smiled and waved his hand "It's fine, thank you.."

She stood still next to me and the silence mixed with some tension invaded the room

I stole a few glances at Jackson but all he did was stay on his phone and glue his eyes to it. After long minutes, JB finally spoke up

"So.. Haeju, Jackson here is leaving to be a part of a program called "Let go of my Baby" which is in China.." he said clearing his throat "And for what everyone knows, you guys are not in good terms so he wants to t-"

"I don't want to talk to he-" Jackson interrupted but JB pushed him down on the couch since he was trying to stand up

"He does. He wants to talk to you about you guys and solve everything" he said looking at Jackson "Right?"

Jackson threw his hand off of his chest and JB sighed making me look down at the ground.. I didn't know what to think, all I knew was that I wanted to cry a river

"We should, give you guys some space.." Hyunji spoke above a whisper "Want to come with me and grab a coffee?" She stuttered as she spoke to JB but he gladly accepted the invitation and stood up.

The both got their things and rushed out the door leaving a deafening silence in the room.. all I could hear was my sniffing and my small sobs as I cried in front of a man glued to his phone, or so I thought he was

After a few minutes, he moved and stood up to sit next to me. He sighed when I moved my face way from him

"Haeju.." he sternly called

I didn't budge.. I kept sobbing and covering my face with my hands and hair.

He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me to his chest making my sob fest become louder and more abundant

He rubbed my back and cleared his throat. We kept like that until my sobbing diminished. So many things were running through my head as he held me in his arms.. I was confused because he was trying to calm me down, but at the same time, I knew deep down that he was still furious at me

When my sobs finally became silent, Jackson finally inhaled to talk

"I hate this Haeju. I completely hate it." He said "Was there even a good reason for you to ignore me? To leave me worred for days after seeing you barely get a hold of yourself when you were drunk?" He mumbled pulling his arm away

I looked up at him and he kept looking at the floor "Is this even important to you? Are we even a real thing for you? Because, I know," he emphasized now getting a hold of an angrier tone "I fucking know I would never do that to you. I would never just disappear without saying anything.. because to me, this is my final destination but apparently, it's not for you, or you wouldn't do shit like this"

I kept quiet not really knowing what to say..

"Goddamnit Haeju, why did you do this? What the fuck is even happening?"

"What is happening is that you and I are too different" I mumbled "You are a celebrity and I am a girl that JYP wants to make profit of from dating you"

"Jesus! Is that a reason to fucking ignore me?! What did I do?!" He said now getting a little louder "Tell me, because all I did was take you home to a bed and a roof, take care of you"

"That wasn't enough Jackson, you should've been there the day after!" I shouted loudly now looking up at him to see that he was staring at me with tears running through his cheeks "You were supposed to be there and tell me that everything was going to be fine, that I shouldn't take the opportunity if I didn't feel like it was genuine! But no, just like always, work comes first and it will always come first, am I right?"

"Why is the fault always mine?" He yelled pointing at his chest "It was my job Haeju! I'm sorry I can't fucking be there all the time whenever you want but you know how it is! I have to do it! It doesn't fucking mean I didn't want to be there for you!"

"You don't get it do you?" I shouted now standing up and turning to him "I am always there for you. In your concerts, when you're home, when you're sick, when you're sad.. but somehow, you never are fucking there for me" I yelled making him stand up "Go Jackson, leave.. go to China like you always do. Get that money." I added regretting what I said the second it left my mouth

The hurt on his eyes broke my heart. He took of his ring and grabbed my hand putting it on it

"I will"

Before I could react in any way, he turned around and grabbed his leather jacket from the couch walking quickly out the door slamming it behind him

My heart shattered into a million pieces as I looked down on my hand to see the ring with my name on it..

What the fuck did I do..