Who I Used To Be -Moxiety Fanfiction

Who I Am Now

Darkness was replaced by the dim dark light of a room. It was silent. I felt softness under me, the pain was gone, if only for a moment. I forced my eyes open. I was in my room. Patton was sitting across the room with Roman, asleep on each others shoulders. A small smile whisped across my face. I was no longer wearing my hoodie, only my t-shirt covered up the wrappings and bandages on my stomach. I attempted to sit up, crying out in pain. This awoke Patton and Roman, who were over at my bedside in a second.

"Don't sit up kiddo"

"Be careful lad"

"Lay back down"

"How are you feeling?" They said over each other

"Guys. I'm fine" Only then did I realize the dark circles under their eyes

"But you guys aren't. You need to leave"

"We're not going anywhere" Roman said dramatically. I rolled my eyes

"Help me up prince charming" He put an arm around my waist and helped he stand.

"How's Thomas? Where's Logan? Where's Depression?"

"Slow down" Patton said
"Thomas is fine, Logan is watching him right now. You don't have to worry about Devon"

"Why? Where is he?" They exchanged looks

"He's not going to be causing us any more harm" Roman said. I looked at the ground. Did I kill him? How was that even possible? It felt horrible thinking that I was the reason for a life, no matter how bad, not being here anymore.

"Are you ok?" Patton whispered. I took a deep breath to calm myself

"I'll be fine"

"Hey" I heard from across the room. Logan was fiddling with his tie nervously. I felt a little bit of the pressure on my chest lift

"Can I talk to you?"

"Sure" Roman and Patton disappeared, leaving me and Logan alone. He stood a good distance away, not sure whether to come closer or not. Finally he let out a huff and pulled me into a hug. I tensed up. Hugging Logan? Damn things really have changed. I pulled away.

"Thomas ok?" He nodded and sniffled

"He's sleeping at the moment. It's anomalous, he doesn't recall anything that transpired these past few days. It's like a black hole. Although I suppose we should be grateful" He shrugged. After a few moments of silence he cleared his throat

"I just wanted to... just wanted to say thank you. For saving my life"

"Yeah... whatever... you know, no big deal" Something inside me stirred. I met his eyes "Did you mean what you said? That I was exceptional?" I could almost see his face turn red. I smiled

"Yeah... I guess I did. I just wanted you to know how important you are to us, we need you. You kinda complete our little... um..." He pulled out a stack of cards from his back pocket and examined them carefully. He picked one and held it up

"Squad" He smiled. I laughed, holding my bandages. Once the laughter died down things got serious again

"So, do you like... spit fire out of your hands now?" I held them up and turned them over.

"I don't think so... I mean... They seem fine now. I think it was just... being around them brought back so many horrible memories, my anxiety hasn't been that high in a long time, so that's what that probably was"

"Well however you did it, thank you"

"Of course. You guys are like... you... well... you guys are like my family" I muttered as quickly as I could. He smiled

"You're my family too Virgil, no matter what happens" We exchanged a smile. Against my better judgement I pulled him into a hug. I heard him chuckle before pulling away. 

"I'm gonna go check on Thomas"

"Ok" he lingered for a few more seconds until he was gone. I smiled to myself

"So how'd it go?" I screamed as a voice came from behind me. Patton jumped out in dramatic fashion
"Jesus Patton. I was literally just stabbed, warn a dude next time" I wiped my forehead

"Sorry! But I was listening the entire time, I Love how much you love each other!"

"Then why did you ask how things wen-"

"Anyways! I'm just glad we're all friends again" I smiled at the ground

"Me too"

He raised my chin to meet his eyes. I felt my stomach stir

"I told you everything was going to be ok"

"But everything wasn't ok Patton. Everything I ever feared happened. I put all of you in danger. And now what are we supposed to do about the others?"

"Lawrence , Elijah and Marcel will take some time to recover. They know their place now, and without their leader, they won't try that again. Even if they do; we'll deal with it together"

"I should really listen to you more"

"Yes you absolutely should!" We laughed. He took my chin again, brushing my bangs out of my face and placing a light kiss on my cheek. His lips lingered by my ear for a few seconds before he pulled away.

"Thank you" He beamed. I smiled proudly, my face sinking into a deep shade of red.

The End

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