I'm Not A Robot [✔️]

Quatre

We made it to the cafe after a painfully long fifteen minutes.

We didn't say a single word to each other the entire way here. We did give each other an occasional glance, but that was it.

"After you, princess"

He teased, opening the door for me.

"Don't call me that. Stop calling me princess damnit"

I scoffed as I rolled my eyes.

Luckily there was no line, so we ordered our drinks and sat at one of the surprisingly unique tables.

He pulled out one of the chairs for me, but I don't trust him. He could pull the chair away and make me fall.

"You really think that I would stoop that low to pull your chair away like that? Hurry and sit down idiot"

I sighed and sat down, and he pushed me closer to the table.

What's going on with him???

After a few minutes after we ordered, our drinks finally came.

I got a White Chocolate Mocha.

And Mark got a simple Latte.

They even brought us two plates of Snickerdoodle cookies~.

I started playing a game of Solitaire on my phone, to avoid any eye contact or conversations with Mark. I thought it was working, until...

"Are you ok?"

He suddenly asked.

"What do you think?"

"I just wanna know what's on your mind Jaemin"

"...No"

"Please... I wanna know"

"...Why hyung?"

"Why what?"

"Why are you always so mean to me...?"

"What are you-"

"Cut the crap hyung! You know how differently you treat me from the others! You always act like you don't want me around, especially in front of them. What have I ever done to you for you to hate me like this...? I try so hard to be nice to you like I am to the others, but no matter how hard I try, you still hate me. What have I done wrong...?"

I started crying a little as my voice escalated.

I covered my face with my hands as I let my sobs take over. Luckily there weren't many people in the cafe, just two or so besides us. This is the first time I've cried in a long time. The last time I cried was when my parents......

Anyway...

I felt him pull my hands away from my face as my sobs started to cease. Mark just held my hands, and looked at me with what I perceived as guilt.

"Jaemin... I-I'm sorry, I really am. I don't hate you, and it's not that I don't want you around. I'm just.......jealous of you..."

"W-What???"

"You're just so...perfect..."

"No... I'm n-not..."

I sniffled as I ate one of the soft cookies.

"You are though! You're way smarter than me, so it'll be easier for you to get into any college you want. You're also way stronger than me, so nobody tries messing with you. You're also waaaaaay more attractive than me, and that kinda hurts my pride. Everyone just loves you and enjoys being around you more than any of us, especially me... I just wish that I was as perfect as you..."

He closed his eyes trying to fight back his own tears.

"Sorry... I-I'll be right back..."

He scurried off to the bathroom, probably to cry in private.

Well, I guess that Chenle was right about everything... But now I need to know something from Taeyong. I quickly pulled out my phone to ask him.

Unfortunately it is...

I have to come clean to Mark...

"Hey, I'm back. Sorry about that..."

Mark apologized as he returned.

"It's ok hyung, really. I forgive you for everything. I'm sorry for making you jealous"

"No no. It's not your fault. You don't have to apologize"

"Right... By the way hyung, do you wanna come over to my house tonight?"

"Yeah~. I'd love to~"

"Cool! We can go now if you'd like. We're able to take our coffee and these cookies to-go too~"

"Great! Let's go~"

Mark and I happily walked out of the café, and made our way to my place.

I'm actually gonna tell him my secret... I just hope that I'm not in the wrong for telling him.

I hope that I can trust him...