Butterflies (h2ovanoss) [DISCONTINUED]

4

I arrived at the airport at 5:49 and I was so full of nerves but excitement at the same time. I couldn't believe I was actually going to do this. I feel ready, it's been years since I've met my friends online. I think it's time that they met me in real life. I'm kind of scared, to be honest. On the ride here, my mind has been clouded of thousands of thousands of thoughts of how this could go wrong. On how they might like me.

They've been dying to meet me irl so I hope this goes well. I glanced at the time again, 5:53. I sighed, unbuckling my belt and slowly got out off my vehicle. Opening the back seat, I grabbed my bag and closed the door. Sighing I walked to the back door and opened it, I grabbed my other bag. Closing it and locked the vehicle up, I decided I'll get Macy to pick it up seeing as I have a spare keys back at my house.

(time skip because i dunno how airports work 🤷🏻‍♂️)

After boarding the plane I pulled out my phone and immediately text Evan.

J: Jonathon
V: Evan

J: good morning bitch

Not even a minute later I got a reply back, I grinned widely to myself.

V: ah yes, the clown has awoken
      good morning to you too delirious XD

J: I probably won't be able to play for a while at least four days
        and I know you're going to PAX just thought I should let you know

I shuffled in my seat, nervous. I sounded like a needy girlfriend.

V: what why? Is everything okay?

I smiled, feeling all better again. He actually cares about me

No he doesn't. No one does. You're a waste.

I frowned, silently agreeing with myself. I was so spaced out I didn't realize Evan has messaged back.

V: Delirious?

V: Jonathon Dennis

V: answer me please

J: sorry, I spaced out. Everything is fine, I'm just planning something special.

Finding my earbuds, I played some music. I had it on shuffle and surprisingly, Ev- I mean.. Rynx's song came on. 

I don't wanna want you
But I do

My phone vibrated, breaking me out of my trance.

V: oh jesus christ, you scared me
       that's fine but the day you're available wanna play some gmod? sandbox maybe?

I grinned, he's sweet.

But he doesn't like you. No one does.

My grin dropped from my face.

Sighing, I replied to Evan.

J: sure, of course. I'll be ready to play :D

V: yay great :D

J: sometimes I feel like you just copy me with ':D'

V: shush I do no such thing

J: sure Ev sure. anyways, I gotta go.
     
I didn't really have to go, I just wanted to drown in his music and day dream about him.

V: oh okay Del. See you soon :D

Now that threw me off, did he somehow knew I was going to PAX? Maybe I'm just paranoid. Yeah.

Sighing, I leaned into my seat. Silently humming to the song.

I felt my self slowly falling asleep...

Jonathon's dream/

I was surrounded by darkness. I couldn't feel or hear anything. I tried to reach out for something, anything. Suddenly, I couldn't breath. I felt like I was drowning. Like I was thrown in raging rapids and I couldn't escape.

Scared.. so scared.

Suddenly, I felt fine. I looked around and saw I was in a hotel room. The bed sheets were messed up. I had nothing on but my boxers. I looked around again, seeing my bags and someone else's.

Hey ugly

I looked up and saw Evan but there was no smile or happy look. Instead a look of pure hatred and disgust was on his face. He looked so displeased with me, like I was nothing like he hoped and now he hated me. I grimaced and looked down.

Next thing I knew, I was somewhere completely different. There was Evan and Tyler. They seemed to be having a private conversation. I walked over slowly, trying to make no sound.

I don't like him Ty

Neither do I Evan, I can't believe we played with this freak.

He's so weird in person. Like, he's expecting us to be his friend now that we know what he looks like.

I overheard everything. Suddenly I couldn't breath again. The wind was knocked out me.

They don't like me.
I'm ugly.
I'm a disgrace.
I'm worthless
I deserve to DIE

End of Jonathon's dream/

I woke up gasping and panting, I looked around and sighed, rubbing my face.

"It was just a dream," I mumbled to myself.

I heard a male voice speak over the intercom, "We'll be landing in fifteen minutes folks, fasten your seat belts."

I laid back, suddenly feeling sick to the stomach. I'm regretting this already but it's too late to back out now.....