ᎷᎥᏕᏖᏝᏋᏖᎧᏋ ᏦᎥᏕᏕ

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Dear Diary,

December 14, 2018. Only 10 more days till Christmas Eve!~ And Aphmau's Party... Now how do I phrase this? I may have a crush on a certain brunette who is the same gender as me. He stole my aching heart like he did to people in High school. A mother flipping adorable heartthrob. Sure, my cheeks are rosey all the time, but he burns it higher like a heating stove. When the gang all came back to Lover's Lane, he was so accepting to who I've become, and has been there for me. I guess I'm helpless~ Heh. Get it? Ok maybe not...

I'm not a straight forward person. I'm gay after all heh. Of course, no one really knows that. I'm fucking surprised no one has caught on. Especially my feminine attitude, but back to the point. I've... Been thinking of confessing... to him. It's been a few months, and I can't stop having the urge to kiss his sun kissed lips. They are usually chapped, but they are so captivating, and I just can't resist.

I don't have a clue how he would react. I need to figure how I'll confess. That's phase 1 Diary. That's it for now.

Signed 12/14/18,
Garroth Alexander Ro'Meave :)

❄️

I sigh shakily putting my pencil down, and closing my Diary shut. My palms are sweating from the nerves rushing through my veins. How am I supposed to confess? Ask out of the blue? Oh hell no. That would make things bitter, and sudden... Give him something? No, he'll just think I'm giving an early Christmas gift! What if I flirt? No... That's his thing. Plus, I'm too awkward to slip a phrase out of my mouth like that. My fricken stutter... my down fall... Wait! What if I...

Kiss him...

No! That would be out of the blue I- Wait. What if I kissed him beneath the mistletoe! I would lore him over, and try to walk along distracting him till we get to the Mistletoe! Ha! Genius-

Only thing is...

How the hell am I confident enough? Ughhh.

Suddenly, I hear a slight knock at my door. My ears twitch slightly, and I mumble a small "Come in." The knob twisted open to reveal the unexpected Baby brother of mine, Zane. Well one of the two, Vylad lives in O'Khasis as a traveling business person. Honestly, I'm really just not into that stuff like my father told me I should be. Zane on the other hand, lives with myself and Laurance. His sky bright eye shines lightly as he enters into my bedroom.

"Hey Baby Bro, What are you up to?" I speak, using his usual nickname. He plops down next to me, and sighs. "Not much, just laying around. I feel like I've been overworking." The ravenette sighs, his mask sliding down to reveal his scarred and pierced lips, with freckles scattered along his nose. My ears perk up, and I carefully place a hand on his shoulder. "Then take a break a day! Working is no fun. Maybe just hang out with Aph or KC! I bet they wouldn't mind! They are some of your closest friends." He nods as I speak my advice. "You're right. I'm just overthinking it..."

Buzz. Buzz.

A vibration comes from my cell phone on the bedside table. I reach, and grab the item reading the message.

One Message from "Laur💞"

Just wanted to let you know I'm in the park right now with Cad! I'll be home in a bit!

I pull off a Cat face Purrfectly~

I giggle rises from my throat, and I blush at the photo. My cheeks flush their rosy color, while my lips agape with a small chuckle. "What's so funny?" My raven haired brother questioned. My grin went away, and my cheeks became rosier. "N-Nothing... Just a funny photo..." CAN I STOP STUTTERING FOR ONE DAY. I can see the grin building on his lips. "Blushing, stuttering, using a dumb excuse. Spill Garroth, who's the lucky girl?~"

I stop. I turn away, and my blush fades. My face had turn to pure shock, and had completely paralyzing my state of mind.

She.

Fuck. No one knows I'm gay, and my brother just asked "who's the lucky girl?" I'm done for. It's either I come out, or fake the whole damn thing. Shit. What do I do?!

"He." I mumble keeping my head down, and away from contact with my brother. "What did you say?" He asks probably even more curious that I'm freaking mumbling. I mumble it again falling forward, and sinking my head into my pillow. "GARROTH SPIT IT OUT!" He yells impatiently.

"IT IS A GUY OK?! FOR FUCKING SAKE!" I screamed the tears fuzzing up my sight. Zane jumps back slightly, but relaxes, putting a hand on my shoulder. He sighs, and rolls his eyes. "Is this what it is about? Garroth were you really that afraid that I'm homophobic, and wouldn't accept you?" I bit my lip, and nodded slightly. "Did you forget I'm bisexual?"

Oh shit. I did forget... Zane had a Crush on Gene in high school, and I think he liked Travis at one point... "S-Sorry it's just been so long..." I speak, scratching my neck. Zane sighs again, "it's fine, but I am curious. Are you Bi? Pan?-" "G-Gay..." I cut him off rubbing my arm. Zane looked surprised, trying to find words to say. "I. I thought you liked Aphmau..." Zane spoke, still in shock that I've never liked girls. "At first... I thought it was, but I was lying to myself. Others told me she and I looked cute together. I thought I was meant to be with her, but I found recently that, my heart never pounded around her. My face wouldn't flush too bright, and I barely stuttered around her." I scratched my upper arm, and looked up at him the curls bouncing in front of my face.

Zane smiled. Something you don't see often. A grin yes, but usually in a quote on quote "Evil way." But this was genuine. "I'm proud of you Gar." I reach my arms around him, and hug him tightly. He hesitates, but hugs back softly.

After about a minute... "Ok, this is enough." He groans. I laugh, and back out of the hug. Zane crosses his arms, and breathes lightly. "So, let me ask again. Who is HE?" Zane raises an eyebrow slyly. The rosiness returns. "Ughh... F-Fine... But don't you dare. T-Tell anyone..." Zane zips his lips eager to find out.

I scroll through my phone, and find a picture of him. I slide it to Zane, and turn slightly away. I watch as his jaw drops slightly. He picks up the phone, and turn it to me again.

"LAURANCE?!"

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