if tomorrow never comes...

under the weight of existence

Can I just stop existing?
That would be great
Then no one would really miss me
Cause it would be like I was never here in the first place.
I wish I could disappear
Without any repercussions
I could just fade away
Oh god, that would be great.
The thing is, I never really wanted to die
I never wanted to be here in the first place
Living is exhausting
I wish I never had the courage to exist.
I'm stuck here now though
So fuck it
Can't live without causing pain
Can't die without causing pain
What's the point of trying to change that?
Life is pain
I feel insane
I can't tell whether or not
I feel too much or too little
I can't even exist correctly
I'm only good at wasting space and oxygen
Leave me be and I'll just be
I won't bother you anymore
Fuck me
I'm being a little bitch again
Crying is shit and now I have a headache
Let's be honest, I am a headache
So I can deal with it
I deserve it anyways
I wish I didn't care so much for other people
They only give me reasons not to
I'm so fucking stupid
And now this poem is too long
Is this even a poem anymore?
Fuck it
I'm done