somethings never change

emotions and looking at things in another way

chapter four:

emotions and looking at things another way

  waked up wishing that what happened is just a nightmare but it wasn't

reality could be a nightmare sometimes that's what im having right now I gusse it's a nightmare even if it wasn't night or sleeping time 

I heard my door knoc (come in) I said not knowing who is it, I get off my bed and my door opened it was Jake (hey )he said

(morning) I said

he just kept quite  looking at the room corners like he have something to say

I really didn't feel like having a conversation with him im not in the mood for everything

(what do you want) I asked him looking in his eyes

(ummm nothing but you didn't like fight with me for like 3 days, exactly were we camed back from that picnic ) he said stepping towards me

(so...) I said

(nothing really but why didn't you fight with me ? it isn't normal is everting alright or you finaly decided to grow up) he told me sitting on my bed

(ha ha really not a good time for your lame jokes plus I'll grow up when you grow up you are older than me after all) I said to him heading to the bathroom

while brushing my teeth I thought about what jack said in another way I mean maybe he really Is wanting to know if I'm alright , maybe he does care and behind those idiot acts a really loving brother and I might answerd him in a rude way

I never thought of him that way I never had the chance to do ,we always fight and I hate you is a normal thing we say to each other every single moment

I went out from my bathroom and I found Jake still in my room looking at the old  pictures that I hanged up earlier on my wall in a heart shape

(I looke nice in this picture ) jack said pointing to a picture were he was seven and I was six, it was my birthday and there were no balloons becaus jack blowed them all

(im sorry) I said stepping to where he was standing

(why) he asked

(umm for nothing I just wanted to say that im sorry) I told him then I laughed

(don't be sorry you did nothing wrong also I fell really weird with all the emotions we just had right now) he said smiling

(me too ) I said laughing

(by the way im not fine sally and eva is leaving the town and I don't know how am I gonna live without them I have britney but I want them all, call this chessy and I know you think im old for the best friends thing but I lived half of my life with them and I want to continue it with them) I said answering his questin really late

(umm im really sorry I don't know what to say ) he said to me

(when are they gonna leave) he asked for no reason I guess he felt awkward of the silence so he had this question to talk about (eva gonna leave right after her parents finish the divorce thing and sally is moving next week they already sent some furniture to their new apartment) I answerd him

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my phone rang and it was eva's name in the screen I pressed answer and said

(hi eva )