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03

*Nicky's pov*

"I just don't get it Kens" I said playing with the pasta in my bowl

"He's moody you not used to it by now?" she laughed cuddling into Michael as I nodded

"Yeah but he's never pushed me out of his room before it was extremely weird" I said as she shrugged and payed more attention to her boyfriend.

How did they do it how did their relationship seem perfect constantly. No arguments. No shouting. No cheating. Everything my previous relationships had before. How did they get it to work so well?

"Earth to nicky" kensie said giggling whilst waving her hand in my face diverting my attention

"Sorry" I said still playing with the pasta

"Michael asked you a question you ignored him"

"Sorry mike what was it?"

"Are you gonna finish that pasta?" He asked pointing as I carried on stabbing my fork into the tiny tubes of pasta losing my appetite more every time I stabbed the pieces

"Um no you want it" I said passing the bowl as I got up

"Yeah go on then thanks...where are you going now?" He said sounding concerned

"To my room I'm tired I need a nap" I said as he nodded before starting to munch on my food as kensie payed attention to the tv

-.-.-.

As I laid on my bed I stared at my sealing thinking about absolutely nothing. The emptiness I felt constantly was draining. I crave the feeling of being me again I just feel lost. The last time I really felt okay was when I was in a relationship with Luke. He was my rock my best friend and it all disappeared because of my selfish actions. All of a sudden I heard shouting from downstairs with the boys and one of them definitely being Luke.

"YOU IDIOT"

"ITS NOT MY FAULT"

"YOU LET HER NOT EAT OF COURSE ITS YOUR FAULT"

"KENSIE WAS THERE AS WELL LUKE NOT JUST ME"

A sudden pit of guilt grew in my stomach as realisation hit that they were arguing about me. I quickly hopped off my bed and made my way towards my door

"ITS NOT MY FAULT SHE DOESNT EAT LUKE IF ANYTHING ITS YOURS"

"HOW"

"SHE WAS GETTING BETTER THEN YOU HAD TO CHEAT AND BE A MOODY PRICK AND MAKE HER FEEL LIKE SHIT" Michael Snapped as I walked towards the stairs with the empty feeling in the stomach I'm used to however this time it made me feel as though I needed to be sick

"YOU'RE BOTH AS STUPID AS EACH OTHER SHES UPSTAIRS AND CAN HEAR YOU" I heard kensie shout as I slowly walked down the grey stairs it became more quiet and I could only hear Luke mumble under his breath. I calmly strolled into the kitchen and immediately caught the attention of the 3 people in the front room as I walked past.

"Nicky" a voice that was obviously Luke's said as I turned on my heals and gave him the best death stare I could

"What now" I snapped as he looked at me shocked

"Why didn't you eat today" he snapped

"Don't get angry over it it's my choice not yours"

"Yes but it's a stupid choice nicky your hurting yourself" he said with his voice raising higher

"Calm down" I said not wanting an argument with someone I care too much about

"YOURE BEING AN IDIOT NICKY WHEN WILL YOU GET IT INTO YOUR HEAD THAT YOU NEED TO EAT" he shouted making me flinch before I shoved past him and towards the front door with a tear rolling down my face.

"Well done Luke nice one smart ass" kensie said following me out as I began walking down the street

"Nick come back where are you going" Kens said as I carried on walking

"Please I just need a minute" I said walking to the only place I wanted to be right now

After 10 minutes of waking I stood outside the house I knew too well. The place that I should avoid yet is my safe space. The place I crave when I'm down. The home of the person I crave but shouldn't

I lifted my hand and knocked on the black door as tears from Luke shouting at me still
As the door opened I stared and cried before being wrapped in a hug

"Nicky what's wrong?"