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05*

*nicky's pov*

"Luke said you were back" kensie said walking into my room causing me to close my laptop stopping Queen from blasting out

"Yep I'm back" I said as she sat down on my bed looking at me before I laughed at how awkward this weirdly was "so what do you want"

"Where were you? where did you run off to this time?" she said sounding concerned. Suddenly the usual question came running through my mind. Do I tell her? Does she already know? How did she find out? After 6 months of keeping it quiet from one of my best mates do I spill now that I cheated on luke when we were together?

"I went to see a friend"

"Nicky the only friends you have live in this house" she said as I shook my head

"Rude"

"It's the truth nicky you know how fake people are" she said before getting up

"Where are you going?" I asked as she opened the door

"Out with Michael see you later"

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The whole house was silent with no one home at all. As I walked round the house I decided I was hungry and made my way towards the kitchen and grabbed a left over pasta pot from the fridge before taking it into front room and began munching on the food.

After eating the food my stomach felt extremely full and it didn't feel right I felt ten times bigger than I already am my stomach looked bigger everything looked bigger I couldn't keep the food down. I didn't want to keep the food down it didn't feel right. I ran to the bathroom and began throwing up wanting the food fully out of my system so I'd lose the weight of just gained. Suddenly I heard the front door open and Luke's voice follow

"Nicky" he said as I sighed not wanting him to come in and see me in the state I currently was in. Yet I wanted him to see. I wanted help. I craved one of his hugs. I wanted him to say it would all be okay and that I'd get better and that he would help me.

"I'm in the bathroom Luke you can come in" I said as the door opened I could feel his eyes burning into the back of my head

"Holy shit Nicky" he said crouching down next to me and slowly rubbing my back as I closed my eyes trying to hold back the tears

"I'm sorry luke I'm so sorry"

"why were you si- nicky please don't tell me you did this to yourself" he said sounding more concerned than ever before I started crying, as that's all I seem to do at the moment, he instantly wrapped his arms around me giving me one of the hugs I craved desperately when I'm down. "I'm sorry I wasn't hear you help you Nicky" he said as I shook my head

"It's not your fault Luke you came at the right tone trust me"

"Let's get you upstairs you look shattered" he said before picking me up bridal style so I could snuggle into his chest for extra comfort

"Luke I'm sorry" I said as my eyes began to feel drier as I calmed down

"It's fine nicky I just want to help" he said walking into my room with me still in his arms before he placed me on my bed before covering me in the marble covers and wrapping an arm around me making me feel safer than ever. "Why do it nicky" he asked whilst playing with the ends of my hair as I stated closing my eyes

"I'm useless Luke I'm fat and stupid and ugly no one wants me I'm not good enough because I'm fat" I whispered

"Hey nick stop please your none of those things and I want you" He said pulling me closer as I closed my eyes absolutely knackered "I'll always want you Nicola"