Random Me

I'm not crazy

I'm not mentally insane. Sometime I think that people think there is something wrong with me because I am terrified of this one boy who stalked and harassed me.

I know some people that think I over react about this, I went to school for almost 3 years being scared every day of that being the day I would be sexually assaulted. I had reason to believe this; he would make sexual remarks towards me sometime and he harassed two of my friends as well. I did not base it off of just my fear but past events.

One of my friend started screaming at me and two of my friends yesterday saying it was in the past we should forgive him and forget about it. Don't ever tell someone that has been sexually harassed that they are in the wrong.

If it was just me he was speaking to I would have just pretended to be friends with they guy and apologized for not agreeing that he was funny. But he also told this to my two friends that got harassed by him.

I felt like no one could ever understand what I felt, being violated and feeling it will never leave me and always follows me.

I forgave the person a long time ago, it does not mean I will put myself in a place where I could be physically harmed.

I  am thinking that I need to let my friend know this: I forgave him, it does not take away the fear though. I see where you are coming from and you meant well but that kind of thing never fully leaves a person.

[I spoke to him, he did not mean it as putting the blame of the victim, he wanted us to all get along because he knew the guy wanted to make thing right and go back to how things were.]

I cried all last night because of how scared I was, I keep getting scared that I might see him again one day. Enough that I have decided next time I see him I will call the police if he tries to approach me (I'm nice I will give a warning first).

When I see someone who is socially awkward try to talk to me I get scared. (Im not scared of people who are shy or have autism or something but people who don't get personal space)

I was scared at school because my school never did anything when I told them he was harassing me (not physically) and making inappropriate (sexual and slightly violent) comments towards me. I was scared he would do something at school one day. (Very small school, I saw him in the hall more than once every day)

Verbal sexual harassment is still sexual harassment.

Forgiveness does not mean ignorance.
Terrified does not mean insane.
Victims are not to blame.

Try to see other peoples views.

I see where my friend was coming from, I hope they can see my point of view as well now.