Blades Away | XXXTENTACTION

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Written by yourlocalblackgirl

I sat down and closed my eyes exhaling the smoke. When I opened them Jahseh was standing in front of me

"I thought I told you that I wanted to walk alone" he didn't respond, he just squatted down and sat beside me

"I'm sorry that you had to go through all those questions and st-"

"It's fine" I honestly didn't want to talk about he interview right now I just wanted to numb everything. I took another puff and inhaled everything thinking about what all has happened

As the minutes went by I could finally feel again. Everything made me feel some type of way. I looked to Jahseh and he looked back at me

"Feel bett-" I cut him off by kissing him resulting in him falling on the floor

He was shocked at first but then kissed back. I pulled back and broke down crying

"I'm sorry for everything Jahseh, for fuckin isolating myself from you, not talking to you enough, and not forgiving you. It's just I'm in so much pain from the loss of our son and I can't take this shit anymore" I didn't even have control over what was going on

I was saying, I think it was the weed that made me basically pour out to him and tell him how I was feeling

I tried wiping my tears but that didn't work much. I then pulled my legs to my chest and cried in my legs. I felt him tap on my bag

"Here a little memory of what we had together" he held out to me a necklace with a locket and in the locket was a ultrasound picture of our son

"How did you get the pictures"

"Phoebe gave them to me, see said I deserved to have them as much as you did"I immediately started crying into my legs again...

Jahseh pulled me close to him and then I started to cry into his chest. He hugged me and wouldn't let me go, I looked up at him and a couple tears fell from his eyes.....