Carmen | Lana Del Rey x The Weekend |

Prologue

My mom and step dad were fighting. She knew what he was doing to me and she was trying to get him to stop. My little sister and I were in our room and she was holding onto me. She hated when they fought. She wasn't stupid, she knew he was gonna hit her. She was 12, making me 15. Mom and Darren were only married three years and now he's been hitting us and raping me. "Lizzy, I don't want him to hurt you again." Chuck says scared. "I know Chuck, it's gonna be alright." I tell her, she looks at me sadly, "what if he uses the knife again?" She asks me, "he won't. He only does when I don't listen." I tell her. "Elizabeth get your ass over here!" Darren says. I let go of Chuck, "try to get some sleep." I say to her, "I'll be back soon I promise." I tell her. I always told her, because when she was younger she'd always make me say that when we were in trouble. I go to him quietly, I knew if I resisted it would be worse, "you're being good today Lizzy, it'll be quick." He tells me as he grabs my pants and pulls them down. While he's raping me I hear him say, "i wonder if your sister's just as good as you." My eyes widen and I push him away, "don't touch my sister!" I say to him, "who are you to stop me?" He says with a smirk, "you can't even stop me from fucking you." He says grabbing the knife and pushing it against my thighs and pushing them apart so he could continue. "Agh! N-no! S-stop!" I say crying even more than before, "no! This is your fucking punishment, for everything, telling your mom about us, and trying to stop me from banging your sister." He says. He continues and I continue to cry. When he's done, he slaps my ass, "go to bed." He says. I pull up my shorts, causing them to turn red from the blood on my thighs and for me to let out a small gasp. I go upstairs and back into Chuck and I's room. I went into the bathroom and took a shower washing the feeling away, the hot water stinging the fresh cuts. I began to cry, I have to get Chuck and I out of here, she can't go through this. I get out and bandage my wounds then getting dressed. I relax on my bed until it was 2am. I woke up Chuck and told her to be quiet, "we have to leave." I tell her, "what about mom?" She says, "we can't risk it Chuck, Darren might catch us in their room." I tell her. She nods as a tear escapes her eye, "Chuck, She'll leave soon." I tell her, not even believing myself. Moms too scared of him, "pack a bag, it's gonna be a while before we find a place to stay." I tell her. She nods and grabs her hiking backpack. I do the same and put my laptop and chargers in there and as many clothes as I could fit in there and my most important things for this journey, my fake IDs. "Chuck, are you ready?" I ask her when I'm done, "Yeah let me just-" "don't touch your phone, we can't bring them, don't tell anyone we're leaving. They'll find us." I tell her, "but-" "Chuck, we have to forget everyone we know right now, we'll never talk to them again, I'm sorry Chuck." I tell her. "What about your boyfriend?" She asks me, "h-he's going to be fine. He doesn't deserve me anyway, Alex will move on." I tell her feeling tears fall from my eyes. "Okay are you ready to go?" I ask her. She nods and we go to the door, "wait!" She whisper shouts. I wait and she grabs her camera putting in its bag and around her neck. We sneak downstairs and I steal Darren's money in his wallet and steal moms too. I grab the keys to one of the cars and we get in, "keep your bag in the front." I tell her. She nods as I place my bag on her lap next to hers. I start the car and use what I know to drive, I try my best but soon get the hang of it, "Why are you so good?" Chuck asks, "Alex had a car, he taught me before." I say smiling at her, "how old was he?" She asks me, "16." I tell her, "wow." She says, "it's only a year Chuck." "I know but why would Darren call you a whore for dating him?" She asks me. I roll my eyes, "because he's mad that someone else is fucking me." I tell her. "Where do you wanna go?" I ask her, "I don't know." She says looking at me, "let's go to New Jersey, we'll stay there and when we have enough money, we'll go to New York." I tell my sister. Jersey was a long drive from Florida. She nods and leans against the chair and closes her eyes. The next few years, I sang in clubs so Chuck and I could buy food on the way to New Jersey. I used my fake ID to get singing jobs at bars and clubs, tending the bars and doing some stripping jobs. I looked older as well which helped a lot on the way especially in Jersey when I became the opening act singing in a strip club and met Kenny. Kenny was about 40 with graying black slicked back hair a short beard, blue eyes and was on the cubby side. Kenny sees me singing and I knew he was interested. I finished my song and when I was done I approached him, "hey I'm Carmen, can I help you with something?" I ask him with the name I used often as an identity just in case my parents were ever looking for us, "you can help me with a lot of things but I think I could help you first, do you want to sing?" I smile and nod quickly, "yes." I say quickly, "what would you do to sing the rest of your life?" He asks me with a smile, "anything." I say eagerly, "great, meet me at my office tomorrow in New York." He says handing me a card, "I will thank you sir!" I say happily. I get out of work early and go back to me and Chucks trailer where she was doing her online school shit, "Chuck, I have amazing news!" I say happily, "what is it?!" She asks jumping down from her bed which was above mine, "I got an offer from a manager in New York to be a singer!" I say happily hugging her, "oh my god Lizzy, that's fucking awesome!" She says pulling me into a hug, "we have to leave now, we gotta get to New York by tomorrow." I tell her, "Okay, what do we do about the trailer?" She asks me, "we didn't pay rent this month anyway, we can just leave." I say packing up my shit.
-the next day-
-New York city-
I rent Chuck and I a small apartment and leave her there to unpack our shit while I go to see Mr. Neilson. I go to the high rise and ask the secretary for him. She tells me the floor and I go into the elevator and go to his office. I see him at his desk the door to his office open. I knock anyway and he says to come in. When he looks up at me and sees me he smiles and gets up shutting the door behind him, "so ms..?" "Grant," "Ms.Grant, you wanna be a singer?" He asks standing in front of me. "Well yes, that's why I came here." "Well I think you have talent, do you know how singers get to the top?" He asks smirking. "No..." I say cautiously, "they fuck Carmen, they fuck their way to the top." He tells me. "What?!" I say looking at him, "If you let me fuck you, I'll be your manager and make you a star Carmen, "Mr. Neilson, I-I-" "Call me Kenny..." he says pushing me against his desk, "j-just this once right? T-then you'll help me with my career?" "Yep, nothing else." He says rubbing my sides. "I-Okay..." I say as he pushed me into the desk and pulled off my skirt. We fucked and he was right, after a few changes of course like my hair color, makeup and a new nose, I became a star. But from that day, and my experiences that came from my stepdad, I knew everything came for a price, and everyone was gonna fuck you over eventually, so why be nice to them?