My Mind

Why

I lay in the middle of my room

why

i ask myself the same question over and over again

why

I asked you if you stopped doing it

you said no

I watched you stick the needle back in your skin

watched it pierce your skin

watched your eyes roll back as the high kicked in

you lied to my face

your own daughter

why

Now i lay in the dark and ask myself

why did you lie

why

It's been two years now and i forgot what you look like

You chose the needle over your kids

why

why did you leave your son

why did you leave your daughter

for the needle

I am told that i should still love you because you are my mother

but you lied

Mom,

I will forgive

but...

I won't forget

...