My Mind

You

I can't believe it

you

you came back

Your such a bad boy

I love it

Well let me start from the beginning

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7th grade

I look  up from focusing on my work

just taking a mental break

I scanned the room

then

My eyes met yours

You quickly looked away

My heart skipped a beat

I suddenly couldn't breathe

I got up to go get some water

I felt your eyes follow me as i walked to the teachers desk

I walked passed you as you were talking to your friends

The second i heard your voice

I blushed

I had butterflies fluttering in my stomach

even though you weren't talking to me

Before i left the class you said my name

I was so flustered that i didn't hear you till the second time

I looked at you and i felt my face turn cherry red

"You dropped your slip"

I was to busy freaking out I didn't realize i had dropped my hall pass

I was starting to bend down to pick it up

but you were too fast and got it for me

"Thank you" and i laughed awkwardly

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Further into 7th grade

You grew an attitude

I thought that was hot

You became this bad boy

You always sent chills down my back

always unpredictable

always a gorgeous sight to see

Everybody thought you were weird

and annoying

but i didn't

I went along with everyone because i didn't want to be talked about

about how i felt for you

You were so bad that you got expelled

i thought that was the last time i would see you

I started to think that maybe it wasn't meant to be 

i lost faith

i still had strong feelings for you.

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8th grade

Its near the end of the year

I was experiencing a broken heart

One day

i was eating lunch and looked up from my food

My eyes widen

My mouth dropped

There you are walking  across the cafeteria

I didn't believe it

you were back

they let you come back to school

I was about to scream

My heart was freaking

i was hyperventilating

Your voice got deeper which made you even hotter

I was convinced i was dreaming

Your still a bad boy

always a thrill

you have no idea who i am

I don't exist in your world

you probably like some other girl

But thats okay

I mean that's what a crush it right?

When you love someone

but they don't have the same feeling for you.

Someone you cant have.

Today i was on the bus.

My friend gave you note that asked you if wanted to go out...

you didn't read it, you threw it on the floor.

That hurt a little.

Then i was minding my own business 

and

I heard my friend ask you out for me

You didn't answer

That hurt a little more

but what did i expect

you don't know me.

we don't talk

You are one of the popular kids

i'm the complete opposite

why would you go out with me?

I guess we will never know.

I still love you.

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