Unofficial Love | XXXTentacion

One

I'm on the bus. Waiting for someone to get on it, because for some reason my bus driver is-everybody and this bus is waiting for Jahseh. "Hey, Stokely. Why is Jahseh always late?"  "Don't call me Stokely, Ashlyn you know that. Only my family can call me that. It's Ski. And I don't know. Sorry I'm not talking to you like I always do. I'm just really tired. I'll be better in science class." He said. I seen Ski tired. He is not himself. Who am I? I'm Ashlyn Rachel Fernandez. I JUST turned 14. I'm in 8th grade. I have 5 siblings. I'M NOT WHITE. Okay, I am but I'm born in Cuba and my mom is Cuban. My siblings aren't. My siblings look nothing like me. They're adopted. My adopted siblings are black. One boy, one girl. Then, I have my half sister who is half Cuban half Mexican. Then, I have my half brother, who is 16 turning 17. He doesn't live with me, he lives with our aunt in New York. Then, my other real brother is dead. He ran away and he got kidnapped and killed.  Yeah, I know that's a lot. My adopted siblings names are Zoey and Zian. My half sibling name is Mariana. My half brother name is Denlyn. And my real brother name...my parents never told me. Zoey is 10, Zian is 12. Mariana is 18. You know, My parents renamed 3 times. By that I mean, first 5 months they wanted to name me Ashden. Then, for another 4 months they decided Ashley. Then RIGHT when I was born, my mom said Ashlyn. Umm. I met Jahseh and Ski in 6th grade. I'm starting to have feelings for them. I don't know which one tho. Oh, Jahseh is finally here. Since Ski is next to the window, and I'm on the side, he sits on seat next to us. I texted him. 

ashlyn: hey jah

jahseh: hey

jahseh: talk to me in math class 

ashlyn: ok

Jahseh is 13. When I said I just turned 14. I lied. A few months ago in September I turned 14. He turns 14 in 11 days. Oh, there's my school

                                                 - At School

I tripped and my books fell. Fuck, I got to pick this shit up. "Hey, Ashlyn. I need to tell you something." Ski said while picking up my books. "What?" He looks behind him. "Symere has a crush on you. One of the coolest kids in this school." Symere? Symere Woods? "Really Ski. It's a shame that I don't." "Hey, my parents are out of town and my brother is at the club, like always. Come over, Jahseh will be there." Ski told me. I nod and packed my books in my backpack, and walked to dismissal. 

     - At Ski's House

I knock on his door. He opens it. "Hey, Jahseh isn't coming. He has art club. Remember, it's every 11th and 20th, he's in this club." I just nod. He closes the door. We sit on the couch. I look at my phone. "Hey, you looking cute."  Ski said to me. I blushed. "Me, ski?" "Yes,  Ashlyn." Then, he scoots over to me. He grabs my face. He kissed me. He pulls back after 20 seconds. "I'm sorry. I just wanted my first kiss. Yes my first, DON'T TEASED ME" He said shyly and blushed. "Ski, it's okay." I smiled. Then, my mom texted me saying to come home dinner is ready. "Aw, my mom wants me to go home. Bye Ski. I'll hang out with you tomorrow." 

- 7 hours later

I'm just about to go to sleep. Then I got a text from Jahseh. 

jahseh: if you are about to go to sleep i'm sorry but

jahseh: have a good night sleep

Next, my face lit up and I went to sleep.