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I just want to be like you guys (Jachary)

I stand looking in my mirror..
Looking down at my body....
It's been a month and I'm still fat...
I just want to be like the other guys....
I just want to feel comfortable with my shirt off
I just want to be happy with how I look...
I just want to have abs like everyone else...
But instead I stand here in my boyfriend and I's room...
tears running down my cheeks...
while the other boys are outside swimming and having fun...
Not having a care in the world what they look like...
My thoughts are broken by a small voice from the doorway..
"Jack" Zach whispers.... I turn to look at him drying my tears quickly and pulling down my shirt... "Yah" I say.. "Are you coming out" He says walking torwards me and wrapping his hand around my waist... "I think I'm gonna go for a run" I say and he looks at my with a sad look... "Are you sure" He says and I nod.. "Yah.. I'll be back soon" I say.. "ok baby.. I love you" He says and I kiss him quick then walk out the door and outside.. I start running around the block and I dont stop...
I see all the other guys with abs and skinny bodys.. I see them not being afraid to show themselves off..  I see eyes on me and I speed up running as fast as I can... Then my phone rings.. and I realize I've been gone for 2 hours.. "Hello" I say out of breath... "Hey bro were worried about you" Jonah says.. "I'm fine.. I'll be home soon" I say.. "ok.. We ordered pizza for dinner" He says and inside I frown.. A food I love that I will not let myself eat.. "Alright" I say and then hang up.. I started back torwards the house.
When I reach the house Zach's sitting outside with his gutair... "finally.. your back" he says coming over to me and kissing me... "You look exhausted" He says and I nod.. "Come in and shower and change then you can eat" He says and I nod walking in the house and going straight upstairs....
I get in the shower and start crying again...
I'm so stupid..
I'm ugly..
I'm fat...
I deserve to die...
I deserve to be left to rot...
I start shaking and fall my knees feeling dizzy and sick...
I sit there a minute then stand back up..
"jack everything ok... it sounded like you fell" I hear Corbyn yell from outside the door.. "No I just dropped the shampoo" I say lying...
I finish in the shower and get dressed and walk down stairs... When I get down there the boys immediately stop talking... "Here baby come eat" Zach says handing my two slices of pizza on a plate... "I'm gonna go upstairs and call Isla shes been wanting to talk to me for awhile" I say and they all nod.. I carry the pizza upstairs and set it on the night stand and call isla...  I talk to her for awhile and then go back downstairs... No I didnt eat... I haven't in a few days... I sit down on the couch beside Zach and he lays his head on my shoulder and I kiss him.. "I love you" I whisper.. "I love you too" he says back... "Hey Jack can you help me for a second" Daniel yells from the other room and I get up.. as I walk torwards the kitchen I start feeling dizzy then the world flashes dark and I loose my balance falling onto the floor.. I hear yelling from Zach and the others and then I wake up in my room on the bed... "You awake" Zach says kissing me... "Jack" Corbyn says.. "Why didn't you eat" he asks.. "you didnt eat lunch either" Jonah says.. "or breakfast" Zach says.. and I just stare at my hands... "Jack why aren't you eating.. why are you acting like this... why baby" Zach asks and I feel my cheeks getting hot... "Because" I say... "That's not an answer Jack" jonah says... "YOU WANNA KNOW WHY" I yell, "BECAUSE IM FAT AND UGLY WHILE YOU 4 ALL HAVE ABS AND PEOPLE ACTUALLY LIKE YOU" I yell breaking down... "You dont know how hard it is to be me... to be in a group with 4 guys that people like.. I just want to be like you...I'm fat and I should just die.. no one would care anyway" I say getting up and walking to the window... "Jack.. why didnt you come to us..." Jonah says... "why didnt you talk to us.. we could have helped you" Corbyn adds.. "because its stupid" I say... "You thinking theese things is not stupid Jack" Daniel says... "would you just leave me alone" I say and I hear them start moving torwards the door.. "I love your body... I love your looks... I love your everything... I dont want you to change anything... Your not fat... Your not ugly.. your beautiful... I would care if you died because I love you... I dont want you to be like other guys... I want you to be like you... I want you to be Jack... I want you to be the Jack I know... I want you to be my Jack" Zachs says softly and I feel my body go numb.. all the feeling inside of me finally hit me... It all comes out.. I cry and cry and cry...
I dont need to change anything...
I dont need to be like other guys...
I have the one thing I really need... J have my Zach.. and that's I want and need... I turn around to see Zach puffy eyed standing there... I look at him and hug him.. I squeeze him tight in my arms and say the word I should have said forever ago... "Dont let me go Zach... dont let me give up.. dont let me let my mind take over... dont let me hurt you... Please.. dont leave me Zachary.... your all I need... your all ill ever need... With you I feel complete... So please Zach...  Don't let me be like other guys.... Don't let me drift away from you... I love you Zach.. I love you so much" I say... "Promise me you wont hurt yourself Jack..  promise me youll stay here... for me" He says and I kiss him... "As long as your here I'm here.."

*Wow.. This one really got me while I was writing it... I hope you like it.. sorry I haven't updated much uve been busy ily guys sm
ALSO NEW SONG TONIGHT I CANT WAIT #Bigplans*

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