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Underneath(Zach)

    I may look happy.. I may seem like the funniest happiest person on earth... I may look so I have such an amazing life.. but underneath all of that... underneath my cool clothes and nice hair... underneath my laugh and fake smile.. underneath everything I push myself to be everyday.. I'm broken... I'm falling apart and I don't know what to do... I feel stuck... I have such an amazing life... Amazing friends... An Amazing Family... An amazing House... Amazing fans.. And most of all an amazing boyfriend...  Everyone thinks I'm perfect... That nothings wrong... but there's always something wrong... But I've never told anyone that... not until the day Jonah Marais Roth Frantzich found me sitting in my bathroom falling apart... crying... yelling without even realizing it... "Zach" He says softly opening the door finding me sitting there.... "oh Hey Jo" I said wiping my tears and turning my head away... Without saying a word Jonah pulled me into a hug... "Zach what's going on" he whispered... "Nothing Jo I'm fine, just a rough day" I said completely lying through his teeth... "Are you sure that's it" Jonah asks and I nod... "Baby" Jack whisperers from the doorway... I let go of Jonah and he comes over to me holding me tight to him.... Jack was never one to realize when something was bothering me... Not until this day... "Zachy what's wrong" He whispers rubbing my back... "Nothing baby it's just been a long day" I say and he rubs my cheek with his thumb... "come on let's go lay down" Jack says grabbing my hand, "actually baby I have to run to my dads real quick but i promise when I get back for sure" I say holding back tears knowing i'm not gonna come back... "Okay love" he says kissing me and walking out of the room, I grab a piece of paper and write everything down on it.. I take it a hide it... knowing only one person would ever think to look there... I reach under the bed and grab a dark blue duffel bag that I've had ready for this moment for months now... I walk out of the house and down the street... When I get to the house I sigh.. no ones here.. there on vacation.. but I didn't tell Jack that.. I unlock the door and set my stuff down walking up stairs to my little sisters room first.. i sit on her bed and look at all her stuff.. The little pink teddy bear I got her.. Her favorite barbie doll... The picture of her and I... I grab the frame and run my fingers a crossed her face.. tears rolled down my face and I looked deep into the picture seeing both of ours smiles as wide as ever.. seeing the way her arms squeezed my neck as I kissed her cheek... I miss those days.. I miss the days where I could go out in public without people assuming stuff... I set the picture down and stood up and looked around the room one last time before walking over to Ryan's room which is full of video games.. i look in the corner to see my old guitar sitting there.. I gave it to him when I moved out here.. I walk around and sit in his chair sitting at his desk holding my head in my hands... I can't hurt them.. but I have to.. I have too do this.. I have to do this  for everyone.. I just have to.. I walk to the very end of the hallway and open the door to my parents room.. The pictures of our family fill the walls and that when I melt.. I fall to the floor crying... all the memories come flooding back.. Ice creams dates with Reese... singing with a Ryan... going to the beach with my mom... Baseball games with my dad... then... I look over to the corner and see the very first picture my mom took of the boys and I... Long talks with Jonah to just clear my head... Space talks with Corbyn at Chipotle... Movie nights with Daniel while we eat tons of popcorn and candy... And everything with Jack.. Hugs, kisses, cuddles, beach walks, laughs, movies, dates, late night food runs, sunsets, hikes, surprises, and so much more... I can't take it anymore.. I can't stand the feeling of hurting the people I love more than anyone in the world.. But I can't stay here hurting myself anymore either.. I know whats best for them and this is it... I stand up and walk back to the kitchen and grab my bag walking the the garage.. the farthest place away from everything else.. I take one deep breath before pulling everything out of the bag and before I knew it it was all gone.. everything before me flashed in my head and then a weight was lifted off my shoulders... and that was it... I was gone....

 *Jacks pov*

I was sitting on the couch when I heard fire whistles and police sirens... then Jonah and Corbyn came running down the stairs Daniel following them.. "Those whistles are heading towards Zach's families house and there's flames up on the hill" Jonah says worried and then it hits me "Zach just went to get something from there" I say and then we all sprint out the door and down the street smoke fills the air as we get closer and my heart melts when I see two fire fighters carrying the boy I love the most out of the burning building.. his skin so burnt and his body so limp... and that's the last time I saw him.. the last time I saw his face.. and then at 9:47 pm that night my boyfriend.. the love of my life was pronounced dead from an accidental fire... and that's what we all believed... for years on years that's what we all thought.. until the day I was sitting in my room... 3 years after I had lost the boy of my dreams.. I was going through some old songs I had written before I lost Zach when I fount a letter.. 

 Dear Jack, 

                       Hey baby, I know your hurting.. I know your confused.. I know you think the fire was accidental but it wasn't.. I just couldn't do it anymore Jack.. Underneath everything I was falling apart and I felt like I was taking everyone down with me.. I love you Jack and I don't want you even a second think this your fault cause it wasn't.. you were the reason i stayed strong for so long.. you were the light in my life and I promise you i'm always gonna be in your heart jack.. i'm always gonna be there.. I want you to move on.. I want you to be happy.. and I don't want you and the boys to end the band.. I want you to keep it going.. Finish writing your songs baby.. share them with the boys.. there so good... and don't let the boys beat themselves up over this.. try to keep them in line.. but don't forget to keep yourself in line too.. and when your upset just know i'm always here.. always... the bow with all of our pictures and memories in it is in the closet.. keep it.. look through them when you miss me and just  know i'm gonna be there hugging you at all times... I'll see you again someday and I promise you that.. I love you Jack.. tell everyone I love them more than everything..  

                                                                                                  Love, your forever and always Zachary.

    I sat there holding my knees before grabbing my papers with my songs on them and finishing them before grabbing the box and looking at the pictures my heart filling with love and happiness.. even though i was hurting I happy I had the time I had with him and even though he was gone he will forever be my forever and always...

*hey peeps hope you like this chapter.. i put a ton of work into it and I cried writing it.. i'm also gonna start updating more.. ilysm*

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