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Russia's vent

So here's a thing about all the things I need to get off my chest, but let's just pretend it's Russia

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Momma never told me how to love
Daddy never told me how to feel
Momma never told me how to touch
Daddy never showed me how to heal
Momma never set a good example
Daddy never held momma's hand
Momma found everything hard to handle
Daddy never stood up like a man

I learned nothing from the sorry excuse you could call parents they're always drunk, I don't want to know who they are or why they decided cut themselves my life like a child's arts and crafts project

I've walked around, broken
Emotionally frozen
Getting it on
Getting it wrong

I fall in love hard and fast because of my mother's neglect to show me how to actually act around boys, getting my heart broken over and over again I'm a sorry hamster running on its wheel to get away from the Troubles of the world

How do you love someone
Without getting hurt
How do you love someone
Without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, how do you love someone
How do you love, how do you love someone

The biggest question I ask myself is how do you love someone, no one's been here to Answer my question, no one's has answer my questions about my body. In my life I never got any answers to any of my questions from my parents, Google has been my friend for so long

I was always the chosen child
The biggest scandal I became
They told me I'd never survive
But survival's my middle name

They all ways told me to step back in line, act like a good girl. but I never wanted to do that, I make my own path and follow it like a leader

I've walked around, hoping
Just barely coping
Getting it on
Getting it wrong

I walk around hoping my mother will get better with her alcoholism, that my father will actually act like my father. but I know it's all just lies that I fabricate to help myself sleep at night, they'll never get better I just have to accept that

How do you love someone
Without getting hurt
How do you love someone
Without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, how do you love someone
How do you love, how do you love someone

There's never been a light in my life there's never been a special someone making me feel like an original, I've just accepted loneliness as a friend, drawings as people, voices in my head as siblings

It's hard to talk
To say what's deep inside
It's hard to tell the truth
When you've always lied

They say I'm liying about my true feelings, when I open up I feel like I need to shut myself even more I need to stitch all of of my feelings into a deep part of my mind that no one can access to protect myself. to protect everything I believe in

How do you love someone
Without getting hurt
How do you love someone
Without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, how do you love someone

I know I should just kick the chair, take pills to make myself never wake up again, hold my breath until I can still see the stars

How do you love someone
And make it last
How do you love someone (love someone)
Without tripping on the past
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, how do you love someone
How do you love, how do you love someone, someone

How do you love someone if your parents never loved you

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I'm sorry for the depressing stuff I'm just going through a lot lately I'll get over it eventually......I hope