Cancer~ED

Part 5

(Another one lol)
Alya
Me and Grayson sat together we talked for hours but then Grayson told me something I needed to know "I'm sorry for bullying you my parents made me do it I really didn't want to but they made me bully YOU because they hated your parents in school" I sat up and hugged him.
While we were hugging something very unexpected happened Ethan walked into the room he had his tubes on an oxygen tank it reminded me of my self and I can see his is on wheels like mine I stop hugging Grayson and tell Grayson to turn around he turns around and starts crying he hugs him and they hug for ages I sit there smiling. Then we all see a doctor he says "Ethan you are supposed to be bed ridden get back into bed" he looked at him "why" the doctor said "because of your condition" Ethan asked what he meant and apparently Ethan wasn't allowed to know. We walked back to his bedroom which,all his tubes connected to that oxygen tank next to his bed. The doctor lead Ethan to his bed and put the wheels on brake. Ethan sat on his bed and said "soooooooo" I said  "sooooooo" as well it was really awkward until a doctor walked in,it was dr Fardin "hey Alya"
"Hi,why are you here"
"I'm here for Ethan"
Ethan
I shot up
"I'm dangerously ill?"
"Yes Ethan,did you not know"
"No apparently i wasn't allowed to know"
"Oh well um oops anyway how are you feeling"
"Useless"
"Why do you feel useless"
"Because I am,I should feel what I am.right?"
"Ethan trust me you're not"
"I am"
"No you're not"
"I AM"
"Ethan how are you useless"
"What can I do"
"What?"
"Can I get out of bed?"
"No" I am
"Can I go anywhere?"
"No"
"Can I help anyone?"
"No"
"Then I'm fucking useless"
"Ethan"
"I don't feel like talking"
"It's time for me to do the checkup then"
I didn't answer
"Well you have to pass me your arm"
I put my in font of her and she put a needle in my arm and it took my blood out,I was getting a blood test yaaaaay how fun,
"Ethan"
I looked at her
"That's all for now"
Five days have passed now the whole time nobody was there nobody came I was in a hospital room for ages,all my belongings over the floor it's basically my new room.

My parents left when they found out I was dangerously ill.

What I really want to know is how am I so ill?

Why do I need help breathing?

Why do I need these tubes?

Why is Grayson not here?

Why did my parents leave?

Do they know?

When is Dr Fardin come back?

Why did everyone leave?

Is Alya okay?

Is Grayson okay?

Does cameron know about all this?

Did Grayson leave with my parents?

My whole life

I've been alone

I've been paralysed

I've been bullied

I've been laughed at
Ive been hurt

and mostly sad my whole life is a question my whole life I have been asking for an answer

"why am I here?"

It hurts to know the only people you thought loved you,hurts you and leaves you when you need them the most

Leaves when they know you're ill

Like they can't cope with the pain of seeing you in pain

But I'm in more pain because the left

If they stayed I would be ill and happy

But nope

Because they left

I'm ill and sad