sexual tension | ethan dolan | discontinued

twenty

i miss you 

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it's been hard ignoring him for the past three days, i've just been sitting home crying but it's monday so i have classes, i really don't want to go

jay has been checking on me every so often and i love him for that, i'm just an emotional bitch

ethan has texted me here and there asking if i'm okay but i just reply with an 'eh...'

marley knows what happened and i hope she doesn't try and talk about it because i'll cry...again

i sit in my usual seat in the class and marley comes in and sits next to me and hands me an iced coffee "here, i know you're upset so i thought this would cheer you up" i smile "i fucking love you" she laughs and looks at my outfit "girl i know you're sad but you look homeless" she's right, the bags under my eyes are something fierce and i have one of ethan's orange hoodies on and black biker shorts with slides and my hairs in a messy ass bun

"i've been depressed let me be" i laugh at her
"have you guys even spoken since he told you"
i shrug "like a few texts asking how i am and saying he loves me" i sigh and she frowns "when are you gonna forgive him" she asks me taking out her notebook

"probably later, i'm going crazy not talking to him but i'm going to cut him off sexually for a while because he's still on punishment" she laughs

"text him now and ask if you can go over after class" i think about it for a minute and give in "i do really miss him and it's been like 5 days since i've actually talked to him and not yelled at him"

-hi

my boy- hey, i miss you

-i miss you so much

my boy- i miss you so much more baby

-can i come over after class

my boy- of course

-marley says 5 days of torture is enough

my boy- you're telling me, do i have your trust back?

-not all of it

my boy- okay, i'll see you later baby, i love you

-love you

"bitch he's probably crying now you said love you not i love you" i laugh "he doesn't deserve i love you right now" she rolls her eyes "just say it"

-you know i love you right ethan? like so much

my boy- yeah, i love you more babygirl

-i'll see you later

my boy- i can't wait

fuck i miss him so much

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i walk to his apartment after class and i knock on the door feeling awkward because i don't really know how to act

he opens it and chuckles "you could have just walked in you know" i roll my eyes "yes but i feel awkward" he frowns "don't baby, we're just in a rough spot because i'm an idiot, we're still us though" i laugh

"true, especially the idiot part" he rolls his eyes and pulls me towards him by my hips "i missed you so much" he breathes on my neck and i sigh and think to myself "he's still on punishment"

his lips connect to the spot he knows is my weakness, under my ear by my jaw, fuck
"ethan, stop" he pulls away and frowns "why baby" i laugh at how needy he is "you're still on punishment, baby boy" i kiss his lips for a second and pull away and walk away feeling his eyes burn holes into my black shorts

i walk into his bedroom and lay on his bed "you coming or not babe" he runs and jumps on the bed next to me "can we take a nap, i haven't slept good in like three days" i say and he sighs "of course baby" he kisses my head and we get comfy and i instantly fall asleep in his arms