I can't handle the control
I'm not free
I'm alone
I'm confined
I'm depressed
I'm unhappy
I'm alone
I'm being controlled
I'm simultaneously loved but nobody really loves me
I'm afraid of death and I'm not
I smile but I'm unhappy
I can't force myself to smile anymore.
The people who care can't be there.
And I want to give up.
It all hurts,
The pain won't go away,
I've befriended the rain,
But it will go away.
My eyes water like the sky,
My tears flow like a river,
Into an ocean,
where they mean nothing.
I can't keep holding on,
When the rope is at its last thread.
I just might end up ...
I wonder what color the sky is to a fish.
How would it feel to have gills?
What is it like to drown?
I'm drowning.
I'm depressed. And my family is the root.
I can't escape,
Unless I leave,
Or I die.
I'm running out of distractions,
And I don't want to face myself.
I keep seeing my reflection,
And I can't see myself.
I feel like, when I change small things, I feel a little better. When I wear bold lipstick, or color my hair, I feel happy.
But my happiness is limited,
And so is my time
