It's hard to recover once you've been abandoned
It's hard to keep going when they left you stranded
When I'm all alone, you know I can't stand it
Cuz attention is the strongest drug on the planet
I know that I work to escape from the pain
I'm breathing, but some days, I wish that would change.
Some things happen, and you just can't stay the same
Some things can happen that alter your brain
I wish I could just learn to cope with the stress
Panic attacks always leave me a mess
I wish I could tell you that I'm doing better but my mental state's not even mediocre at best.
It's an understatement to say that I'm changing
I'm constantly thinking, analyzing, rearranging
The thoughts in my mind and the traumas that made me
Have to deal with all of these insecurities daily.
I'm searching for trust, I'm searching for peace
And freedom from things that are making me weak
I'm searching for joy, I'm searching for life
I'm searching for something that I don't know how to find.
