**Another mini series!!! I'm gonna try to keep these chapters short but in all honesty I probably won't so enjoy :)**
--Disclaimer there is no chronological order to the memories. I know it might be confusing but I'm trying to make it feel more human.--
Her eyes flutter open to the sound of a small voice beside her bed, "Mommy, I'm awake."
"I see that," Lena said half asleep. She looked at the clock and saw it was only 6AM.
"Oh, Atlas it's too early for this," Lena told her son.
"But why the morning is so great!" Atlas stated full of energy. Lena couldn't help but think about how much like Kara he was. She got her son ready for school and walked him to the bus stop for his very first day of school.
She could feel the nervous energy radiating off him as they walked the corner of the block, she looked down at him, "Nervous?"
"A little bit...maybe," he answered as he kicked a pebble ahead of them.
"Me too. But you'll be okay, remember you're teacher we met her last week she seemed really nice. You'll be back here before you know it," Lena told her son as they stopped where the other kids and parents gathered.
"Yeah, I guess. I'll miss you mommy," he replied tears coming to his eyes.
Lena saw the bus coming down the road, "Look here comes the bus. Atlas I'll be right here when you get back okay," she told him.
"Okay," he said seeming unconvinced. Lena knelt down and hugged her son as tears filled her eyes. The bus stopped opened its doors and Atlas got on reluctantly.
"Your first?" asked one of the dads that witnessed the exchange.
"Yeah," Lena said with a laugh.
"Next week he'll get on and he won't look back, trust me, I've done this a few times. I'm David by the way," he told her laughing a little.
"Lena...I just wish my wife was still here to do this with me. She was a lot better at the comforting thing," Lena said suddenly saddened.
"Me too...cancer, what about you?" he asked sharing in her sadness.
"Firefighter, she died on a call," Lena lied. In a way it was kind of true, Kara put out fires real and metaphorical ones.
"Well I like to think that she's always where ever I need her in spirit. Well, I'll see you tomorrow," he told her happily then turned to walk away.
"See you tomorrow...thank you David," Lena said watching him go down the street for a moment.
She walked home, to the little house in the suburbs they'd bought when they'd found out she was pregnant. The idea being that they wanted their kids to have a yard to play in but now it was odd not having Kara there. Lena wanted to move when she died but couldn't bring herself to do it, so in the house they stayed. She opened the front door and walked into the living room then sat down on the couch with a sigh. She let the tears she'd been holding back fall as she looked the photos around the room. She'd survived this day without tear shed before but a mix of a milestone for Atlas and their wedding anniversary was more than she could handle. Although the pictures were painful to look at everyday she kept them around.
"Lena! what are you doing in here? You know we're not supposed to see each other before the ceremony!" Kara scolded as Lena entered her dressing room. Kara sat at the vanity toying with her hair that, in Lena's eyes, was already perfect.
"Kara, darling, you really believe in that superstition crap?" Lena asked hugging her soon-to-be wife from behind.
"Yes Lena! We have 30 mins to get ready why aren't you in your dress?" Kara stressed.
"Fine I'll go back to my dressing room," Lena surrendered.
"The next time I see you it better be when you're walking down the isle missy," Kara told her laughing a little.
"Yes ma'am," Lena flirted as she closed the door.
She thought about Atlas and his resemblance to Kara with his blond hair and clear blue eyes. His mannerisms were so much like Kara she couldn't believe it sometimes. She remembered the day they finally decided on his name.
"What about...Atlas?" Kara asked. They sat in bed still in their pajamas it was a lazy Sunday morning. Lena had pillows stuffed in between her back and the head board in an effort to get comfortable which was nearly impossible in the last trimester.
"Oh, I like that one. Isn't that the Greek God of the sky and astrology?" Lena asked.
"Yeah, in honor of Astra. I know that Atlas doesn't have the same meaning but it's similar,"
"I love it babe, it's perfect," Lena told her wife.
"Me too. How about Zor-El and Kieran as his middle names?" Kara asked.
"I don't know about Kieran..." Lena trailed off.
"Well, his name would be half you and half me. Atlas Zor-El Kieran Luthor...it's perfect," Kara told her wife leaning over to rub her stomach.
"Kara, his name doesn't have to be Luthor I don't want to do that to him," Lena told her wife.
"Of course it does. It'd be weird to have a child with a different last name then us," Kara told her wife.
"I told you I didn't have an issue changing my name to Danvers when we got married. Why couldn't we do that?" Lena asked.
"Because, I chose to take on the 'burden'," she made quotation marks in the air with her fingers, "of the Luthor name with you and you'll never escape the name so why not embrace it," Kara explained for what felt like the millionth time.
"I guess you're right," Lena agreed halfheartedly.
"I know I am. Besides we'll tell him that people may judge him because of his name but that doesn't define him, his actions do," Kara comforted her wife.
Lena got up from the couch and texted Eve, her assistant, telling her to reschedule her meetings for the day. All she wanted to do was sit around and reminisce the good times she'd had with her wife. She sat down at the kitchen table with a reheated cup of coffee.
"What is that?" Kara asked as she stuffed a fork full of her dinner in her mouth.
"What?" Lena asked.
"That noise. You can't tell me you don't hear that," Kara said setting her fork down. Lena sat quietly for a moment listening.
"I don't hear anything," Lena said confused. Kara stood up looking around trying to find the source.
"You're telling me that you don't hear that slow thumping noise? Sometimes having super-hearing is a curse," Kara still looking for the sound's source. She walked away from Lena and the sound grew fainter but the closer to Lena she got the louder the sound got. Suddenly it clicked in her brain.
"Oh my Rao! Stand up!" Kara nearly shouted excited. Lena stood hesitantly and Kara got on her knees and pressed her ear to Lena's stomach, "Lena! It's the baby's heartbeat!"
"Oh my Rao! Really!? I wish I could hear," Lena complained.
"Well we can go see the doctor tomorrow but for now I'm gonna keep eating," Kara told Lena sitting back down at the other end of the table and began eating again but with a smile on her face.
Lena took a deep breath and let a single tear roll down her cheek. She never cried in front of Atlas, she decided that early on. She didn't want their son to connect sadness with Kara. At least she knew how to help him through the grief of losing a parent, even though he'd been only 2 when Kara died, he'd never be free of the grief. He'd forever miss someone he didn't remember. She remembered graduations being especially difficult. She hoped that she'd be enough for her son. She always thought that she'd be able to share the weight of being a parent with Kara but now it was all up to her.
She knew that if and when Atlas started to develop powers that she'd have to consult Alex and Eliza but for now he showed no signs of Kryptonian abilities.
She retreated back into her thoughts remembering the day that Kara told her that she was Supergirl.
