Himeko's POV
'Himeko...'
I opened my eyes only to be greeted with a white ceiling and the smell of antiseptics.
"Kiana?!" I groaned when suddenly tried to sit up but someone slowly helped me get up
"You should still rest" Theresa gave me a worried look
"Kiana... where is she?" I asked
"Don't worry, she's fine. She just left to get some fresh air" I sighed in relief. Then that means everything worked out... All I remembered was Kiana knocked me out cold and after that I'm already here. Did I leave everything to (y/n) again? I sighed, realizing that I gave her some workload she always hated. But now that I look at it, she always finishes her job without fail. I guess our family does really have a devil's luck?
"How long was I out?"
"Three days" she replied, somehow her eyes looked a little bit weird... It feels like she's carrying something on her mind but she's not showing any hints of what it is about. Plus something doesn't feel right...
"Theresa... Where's (y/n)?" That girl's power is something not to be underestimated. It always feels like luck is siding with her every mission. She was considered an elite for nothing but why do I feel like...
"I bet she woke up earlier than m—"
"Himeko..." she suddenly stood up and faced me
"Remember! She... she's not here.... a-anymore... Just... Please" I looked over her direction, unable to process what she just said
"Huh? She already transferred to another base again? Isn't it too early for someone who worked way too much to be placed in another base?... Again?" I confusedly asked. Her hair covered her face and she is slightly shaking
"That's not—"
"Aunt Himeko!" The door suddenly slammed open, revealing a huffing, white haired girl but her usual braid are nowhere to be seen and her face is a mess. She slowly approached me and then suddenly hugged me
"Kiana?! You're not supposed to be up yet-"
"Kiana...?"
"I'm sorry...." she kept on repeating those words, again and again. I told her that everything's fine already but she kept on apologizing
I raised my hand to pat her head and comfort her but she kept on wailing, unable to form any words as tears continued to stream on her face
"Oh, that's right. Why don't we call (y/n)? She's better at handling you when you're like thi—" I stopped as memories started flashing back in
~ Flashback (after the battle) ~
I heard someone's muffled voice as my blurry sight slowly regained my normal vision
".......U.... o...... yo.......u.... Hi.....me.....ko...." I slowly sit up and noticed (y/n) beside me. I crawled next to her and looked over her weak figure
"(y/n)?" I called her name but no I received no response
"(Y/N)?!" Her eyes were glassy and she was staring straight the sky. I kept calling her but it seems like it's not reaching her. Tears were threatening to fall but I bit my lip and lifted her up. The hole in her stomach were no longer spilling any crimson liquid, her lips were slightly apart and her skin will make someone faint if they see how pail her (s/c) is... But most importantly....
'She's so cold...'
'No, not right now!' I started patting her cheeks as lightly as possible but nothing happened. Before I knew it, I started shaking her
"(Y/N)! Come on!" I desperately tried to gain her attention and even cupped her face towards me
"Hey, come on... You're stronger than this! Hey, please! " I started to feel hopeless.
"...Live even it kills you, right?" Suddenly tears from her face started streaming down but her gaze is still far away from reality. At this point I couldn't take it anymore as I felt something pouring out of my eyes...
"YOU'RE SO UNFAIR!" I can't control what I am feeling right now, I'm confused, I'm angry, I'm exhausted, I'm lonely, I'm a mess but what I strongly feel at the moment is fear
"YOU'RE ALWAYS DOING THINGS THAT YOU LIKE! AND NOW YOU'RE CRYING?! STOP IT! NO...NO,NO,NO! I NEVER GAVE YOU THE PERMISSION TO LEAVE ME YET! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS NEVER LISTEN TO ME?!" I continued. I know that what I'm doing at the moment is not helping but I just can't stop the words coming out from me...
"Y-you never listen to me.... b-but please... Even only this on-ce....even only this once... let me act as your spoiled little sister..." I continued to sob. No...Not like this, not yet. I don't want to lose you too
"Don't go..... Big Sister....." As if someone answered my prayer when my sister smiled, as warmly as it can get... But it was short lived, she suddenly became limp in my arms.....
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'Wha—'
"(y-y/n)?..." Her eyes no longer hold the shine that usually annoys me, her chest is now perfectly still, leaving me frozen at my spot
"(y.../n)?..."
~ End of Flashback ~
Tears formed in my eyes as I remembered everything...
"Himeko... you've already woken up before today... But your mind completely rejected the truth and fell into coma for another day"
"I see..." was the only thing I could mutter
"Himeko, I... I-"
"I'm sorry but can you both please give me a short time to let all of this sink in"
"We'll be right outside if you need anything" Theresa reluctantly left her seat and gave me sad glance
"Thank you..." I only started at the ceiling as they walk through the door.
But before Kiana could walk out, I called her
"It's not your fault"
Her eyes went wide as she clenched her hand to her chest
She then softly closed the door and I was left alone
Rather than crying, I only felt an empty void within myself
"Totally pathetic... aren't I?"
To forget the sacrifice you made
To reject the fact that you are not here anymore
But it hurts...
It hurts... even just the mere thought of it...
To know that you I will never get annoyed by that grin of yours
To realize that we can't have what we used to
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To remember that you are now gone
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Author's Note:
I uh... well... ehehe. Hello again I guess??? I'm just continuing this one (which I actually wrote the day after I wrote the first part but I never finished it...)
Yup, this is way too different from the canon (and yup, I still can't move on her death even until now-)
And woah... that 2+ year gap tho-
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