3 | Unsettling

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your lies are unsettling
i cannot tell you how much so

for you would mock me
your eyes shoot daggers at me

whenever my back is turned

and i'm tired of that
i'm tired of people telling me

to get my head out of the clouds
and actually do my work

because i'm trying
maybe i'm just not suited for working

but how can i work when
your words float around in my head

she can't do this
she's just too shy
she's just too lazy

and, from my parents -

you have responsibilities
stop being so lazy

i think you're getting fatter
you could've done better

so many words of shame
nothing good - maybe i'm worthless

or maybe i'm just
not patient enough

any self-control i once had
has long been forgotten -

no one really cares anyway.
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oops, another ranty one, sorry :(( kind of thankful that school ends this week  !! maybe i can get more proper content out :D

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