Nighttime Mist [Poetry]

7 | Novel

i can't describe this feeling

it's so much more than frantic heartbeats,

aching hearts and that special spark

we aren't living in a romance novel

as much as i hate to admit it, it's true

just because i like you

doesn't mean you'll like me too

i think about it sometimes

late at night, my brain's not working

all i want to do is to start trying

but i can't.

i am in love with your smile

and the way your eyes crinkle up when you laugh

the way you light up the room so effortlessly

but my brain is in love with doubt

and i live in fear. i don't want to ruin this.

i can't take the risk because i'm scared

of your hate, of being ignored, of being loathed

so i say nothing.

i just let it consume me, this fear and hate

as i wonder why i can't just be normal

like everyone else 

but then again

we aren't living in a romance novel

not everyone gets to build memories

and that's how it'll be for centuries.

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