~TicciWork~ (Ticci Toby x Clockwork)

-Chapter 5- The Monster

{ Clockwork's POV }

My eyes began to water. There was so much pressure on me. I loved both of them.. I really did.. But.. I just can't.

For some reason, my past started to flash in my memory. (( I really don't know how to word that... XD )) I thought about my brother abusing me, using me as his slave, everyday, for 4 years. I didn't want that to happen again.. Would BEN do that to me? Would Toby..?

I just don't know.

"I just.. I just don't know..." I felt as tears started to form.

I was so confused.

Toby and BEN gasped, realizing the pressure they put on me. They both went to hug me, I guess, when they ran into each other and started to fight.

Again.

They always fought, and I hated it, especially over me.

I don't know why they would fight over me, I'm not worth it..

I'm just not worth it...

I clenched my fists, starting to grow angry.

"Just.." I said quietly, "just... JUST STOP!" I yelled, tears streaming down my face.

Silence fell.

"I don't understand!" I yelled, breaking the silence, "Why.. Why would you guys fight.. Over me?! Why would you even care?! Don't you understand how confused I am?!"

I sniffed, waiting for an answer.

"Well, do you?!" I yelled then broke down crying, kneeling on the ground.

I wiped my tears with my hoodie and cried some more, thinking about all the stupid boys in my life that hurt me. They all hurt me, physically and mentally. This caused me to cry more.

I just let it out. Everything I've been holding for all my years.. That's why I snapped, because I held everything in. Now I'm letting just a bit of it out. If I where to let it all out, I'd be crying for centuries.

"I don't understand.." I mumbled to myself, "W-why.."

"Clockwork.." Toby said, putting a hand on my shoulder. I swatted off.

"D-don't touch me!" I yelled, standing up, "That's all you boys ever do, is hurt me!" I said. I paused for a second.

'That's all they do.. Hurt me..'

I repeated it in my head over and over again.

I started to laugh.

"I-if all you do is hurt me.." I laughed more, "Then.. W-why can't I hurt you..?!"

I pulled out my knives.

They hurt me.

So, I'll hurt them.

Just like I did to my family.

They will pay.

I grabbed Toby's arm and pushed him to the ground.

He didn't fight back.

I wonder why...

I went to stab him but I stopped.

Toby..

He was looking at me.

He was horrified.

He was simply horrified.

He didn't fight..

Because he didn't want to hurt me...

I stopped and got off of him, putting my knives back in my hoodie. I stared at him on the ground, and then looked at BEN, who was even more scared.

They looked at me as if I was a monster.

I don't think they realize I am.

I turned around and went back inside.

They probably don't like me no more..

I wouldn't.

[ TIME LAPSE OF TIME LAPSENESS TO THE NEXT DAY ]

{ Clockwork's POV }

I woke up to find that BEN wasn't in our room. Eh.

"He's probably still scared of me.."

I said, out loud, frowning a bit.

"Who's scared of you..? Do I had to cut a guy?"

Who was that..?

It sounded like BEN, but-

"Down here, smarty." The electronic voice said.

I looked down at my end table. There sat a phone, with BEN in it.

I forgot he can do that..

"Happy Birthday!" BEN said, "I got you a present~!"

I looked next to the phone, there was a note.

'Happy birthday, Clocky! Next to this note is your present. I hope you like it!

Love, BEN.'

I looked on the back of it. It looked like he added this bit a while ago. It was in different coloured pen and it looked like he rushed. Not to mention it still smudged.

'P.S: I'm sorry about last night.. I really am. Me and Toby-'

He, of course, meant "Toby and I."

Not "Me and Toby."

'*Toby and I* where so sad, guilty, and mad at ourselves. We are going to be friends now.. For you. I love you, and I'm sorry we put this pressure of you. We will give you more time.'

I didn't know what to say; should I talk about last night or about the phone?

"BEN," I said, "I-"

I notice he was gone.

I picked up the phone and looked at my giraffe.

Who do I love?

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{ Toby's POV }

I laid in my bed, looking at the ceiling.

I sighed.

I can't believe I lead her to that..

She almost killed me..

She was about to kill me...

To be honest, I didn't care.

I didn't want to hurt her.

I didn't care if I died.

After, I seemed to like her more. I don't know why.. I think it's because she still has that mercy in her..

I didn't know what to do. I was so confused..

I loved her.

But, did she love me?

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{ Ben's POV }

I sat against a tree, sighing.

I was outside, a bit far from the house.

I hope Clockwork likes her gift.

It was so we can always be together..

To be honest, I thought we would be dating by now.

Now I have to pretend to be Toby's friend.

When Toby is a jerk to me, Clockwork will be mad at him and be an angel to me.

It's the perfect plan.

It's for Clockwork.

It's for my love.

We will be together, if she likes it or not.

We will.

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Thanks for reading! A new chapter will be published in a day, hopefully sooner! :3

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