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💔Not Good Enough For You - Rykey

"Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto"

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Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much that you can finally say you're used to it?

I've been hurt by the one person I never thought would hurt me. I've been hurt by you, Mikey.

Why? Why was our friendship not enough for you? Why did you have to throw away everything we've worked so hard to build. Why did you have to turn your back on your brother? I never would've turned my back on you.

But it's too late now. You've lost all my respect and trust. I don't see how I could ever trust you again. You broke me. You promised you wouldn't, and you did. Why was I not good enough? Do I not compare to your new friends? I'm not going to let myself wonder if I did anything wrong. I'm tired of punishing myself for others mistakes.

I don't miss you. I miss the love I once felt when I was with you. I miss the memories that once made me so happy. I miss my best friend. I miss being cared for. I miss who you used to be.

What happened to the guy I used to know? The one who would do anything for the people he cared about. The one who would've never stopped fighting for us.

You changed, Mikey. I didn't know I had it in me to let you go, but now I have. It's the most relieving feeling. I still love you, and I always will. But I don't need you anymore.

I'm giving up on you. Not because I don't care, but because you don't. True friendships never end, unless they were never there to begin with. I guess you managed to fool me for so long. I fell for it. When you told me you loved me, I believed you. When you told me you'd never hurt me, I let myself trust you. When you wrapped your arms around me and said its me and you against the world, I let you hold me. I took in each and every word you said, Mikey. I let myself believe things would be okay.

But they're not. You left. You left the band. You left the boys. You left your life behind.

You left me.

I really wish things hadn't turned out this way, but they have. This is how it's going to end, and for once it isn't my fault. It's yours, Mikey. You let go. I tried to hold on for as long as I could, but I'm not strong enough. I'm not brave enough to repair the damage you've caused, and quite frankly, I don't see why I should have to.

Nobody knows about the nights I spent in my room crying, watching you be happy with someone else. The smiles on each one of your videos says it all. You're happier without me. I guess I wasn't good enough to be part of that smile.

This isn't the end of my story. It's the start of a new chapter. A better chapter, filled with love and happiness. A chapter without you in it.

I used to think you were my only source of happiness, but you're not. I have him. He wipes away my tears and holds me close while I break down. Of course, I won't be fooled twice. I'll keep my distance incase he's only here to break me as well. But with him, I feel loved. I feel wanted.

I feel as though I'm good enough.

You'll always have a piece of my heart, Mikey. But that's the reason why my heart will never be whole again.

A/N

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Bye guys Xx