The smiles I did yesterday feels so unreal.
So fake.
At last, I already ended it.
I don't know what should I feel last night.
Should I be happy that I am now free from you or should I be lonely because I lost someone so dear to me.
Maybe I'll settle with relieved.
I think I'm relieved.
I'm relieved to know that we won't hurt each other anymore.
Me, hurting you by being cold and not so active during our conversation and you, hurting me by taking my presence in your life for granted.
You said last night that you feel like you're always the one who tries to start a convo.
Maybe because I don't want to appear like a clingy girlfriend.
I don't have that kind of right to you.
I know you're a very busy person.
I don't want to beg for you're attention.
I want you to give it to me.
Voluntarily.
Sometimes, I feel like a reservation.
Like an obedient dog waiting for his master to spare her some of his time.
I don't feel important to you.
Which I confirmed last night.
You said I'm not in your plans.
That I'm not one of your priorities.
I already felt it long ago but it still hurts, knowing that you really don't think that I am important in your life.
The tumbler you couldn't give to me will be thrown away.
That's for sure.
You said it yourself last night.
Honestly, I felt a little bit of your love from that tumbler.
The design is about Jungkook's pet names and a little "JAGI" under it.
Like a little tag for the tumbler.
After our conversation last night, I didn't entertain any feelings and just distract myself with streaming of BTS' Boy With Luv MV while watching a K-Drama with my sister.
They did distract me and I fell asleep still forcing myself not to imagine anything anymore.
The next day, I muster my courage and read our convo last night.
This time, much more calmer.
With how my feelings all mixed up last night, I don't know if I really explained my side to you.
And sadly I didn't.
But I'm afraid if I send you another message of the whole truth, I'll hurt you more.
And I think you must be free from me completely.
Free from my greedy expectations.
Free from my ambitious self.
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