The gang leaders princess, (joshler)

Chapter four

I gasped. I wasn't expecting to see her here. I can't tell her what happened. I don't even know if I can trust them and josh.

Hearing me she whipped her head around. Her eyes go wide. While running towards me she yells, "Tyler! Oh my god, Tyler what happened?"

I flinched at how loud she spoke and she apologized. I tried to make up an excuse, "umm I-Umm don't want to talk about it."

Seriously? That's all I got? Ugg. Kiki looked at me confused then gripped my wrist and dragged me out behind the bleachers. She helped me sit down then called someone. A few minutes later josh is running towards me.

He sat down next to me. I could feel the rage radiating from him, "who did this?"

I just went with the same dumb excuse, "I don't want to talk about it."

Josh pinched the bridge of his nose, "Tyler, princess. What happened? Please tell me."

He touched the gash in my head. It stung and I sucked in my breath. He pulled away and looked sympathetic. I just looked away.

Memories of all the things said and done to me flashed back to me.

*flashback*
The whole cheer squad was whispering in my ears as I walked down the walls. "faggot, dike, girl, crybaby, loser, stupid, fat, ugly, gross, messed up."

I was fine with it all until someone whispered, "mentally ill."

I gasped. They think there's something wrong with me. Is my brain messed up? Am I just a screw up?

Everyone was staring at me as tears streamed down my face. I immediately ran home.

I went through everything I owned. Putting all my 'girly' stuff in a bag. Once my mom got home I handed her the bag and told her to donate it.

She looked down at me giving me the same sympathetic look josh gave me. "Now tyty why would I do that? You love them, they make you you. You have to love yourself. You can't live your life as someone your not. Promise me you will love yourself forever."

I nodded my head and she smiled. "Good Now go put everything back. I want to see you in your silk pjs, so we can watch beauty and the beast while eating ice cream."

I smiled and ran back upstairs.

*reality*
I had tears rolling down my face. I broke my promise. I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. Josh hugged me whispering, "hey it's okay whoever did this will pay. Now who was it?"

Maybe I should tell him. Kade won't actually kill me right? Or would he? "I-i can't tell you. They threatened me."

He held me tighter, "whatever they said just know I won't let them hurt you in any way. Princess I will protect you."

He's right. I can trust josh. He's so sweet to me.  "I-it was k-kade. H-he hu-Hurt me."

I broke down in tears clinging onto josh for dear life. Josh spoke quietly, "hey hey it's alright. Is that all that happened. Be b-beat you and left?"

I remembered what he said about josh. "Umm not exactly. He wanted to make a d-deal. He said less bullying if I stop sending you all after him? W-what does me mean?"

Josh sighed. "Tyler If I told you, you would have to start a new life."

I looked at him confused. What does he mean? Now I need to know, "I don't want to be around someone who isn't honest. Tell me what kade meant. Tell me who you really are!"

Josh thought for a second, "princess I don't want to lie but it's for the best. Do you really want to know?"

I gave a slight nod. Josh nodded towards Kiki and she walked away. "Tyler the truth is I'm a leader of a gang. I'm not afraid to threaten, hurt, or kill people. So i used all my will power not to kill kade. I needed him as an example of what will happen if anyone messes with you again. Please baby forgive me. I still care about you."

Josh is dangerous, but for some reason I can't stay away from him. I have to forgive him. "I-i still trust you. I'm not going to leave you."

Josh smiled, "good I hope you can forgive this too."

Then all of a sudden a rag is put on my mouth and nose. someone covers my eyes, and I struggle for a second. I couldn't stay concise. I let the darkness consume me.