Nang Naging Akin Siya

Kabanata 42

The way she looks

Two days, two days had passed already Wala Naman akong masyadong ginawa paguwi ko dito sa pinas. Kinulit Lang ako Ng Anim Kong kaibigan. I went back to my room. Ito Yung kwarto ko noong teen ager pa ako. I still remember her in this room, How pathetic is me? The moment we shared together, Those happy and sweet moment that we had... Kahit hangang ngayon pala masakit parin! Knowing her with someone else now. Knowing that she's happy with someone else it's breaking my heart. Breaking so much.

I sat down on the edge of my king size bed. I remember the time when we watched movies here. Me hugging her at the back... Kissing her in her neck down to something intimate. I still can't get over her even the years had passed all people might change but my feelings for her didn't. Lahat Ng alaalang pinilit Kong limutin, Lahat Ng Iyon bumalik. Kasabay Ng pagbalik ko dito sa Pilipinas Ang pagbalik Ng milyong milyong alaala namin na Tiyak akong limot niya na ngayon. Ako na Lang talaga Ang Hindi pa nakakalimot. Ako na Lang... Wala na akong nararamdaman sa kaniya ngunit may naiwan pa ding sakit sa aking dibdib. She left me. She left me without saying any words or goodbye.

Ang daming Sana Ng buhay Kong nasayang. Sana nagpaalam siya para malaman ko Kung kailangan siya Aalis para mapigilan ko siya. Sana Hindi ko ginawa Yun Ng Hindi siya nasakatan. Sana binigyan ko siya Ng tsansa na magpaliwanag. Sana nakinig ako sa kaniya.... Pero Lahat Ng Iyon ay mananatiling Sana na lamang... Dahil Ang oras kahit Anong Pilit mo Hindi mong maibabalik Hindi na Yun mangyayari pa. You'll just given one chance in every lifetime swerte ka na Kung may second chance kapa. But if she given me my second chance, I will promise to her the world. I will promise to her that I won't break it again... If she given me a second chance but this are all If's. Tanga na Kung Tanga pero Hindi ko kayang makitang may kasama siyang iba. I had two choices, One is I'll fight for her back and make my self realize that I still love her. Or the other choices, I won't fight, I will let her to be happy with other man accept everything that changes, Accept that she'll never be mine again at take away my feelings from her. Yes I am such an indenial to my feelings. Because I need too.

I drove my car, going to my Dad's office in Makati. Having a meeting with him and his lawyer. Napadaan ako sa dating school namin. The Agustin College. It  looks old but definitely beautiful. Ilang taon ding Hindi ko Nasilayan Ang eskwelahan na Ito. I remember the time when we need to gate crashed I'm with her that time.. fuck memories! Masyadong madami sarap kalimutan.

I was about to enter my dad's office nang biglang may nakabanga akong isang Mid twenties na girl kasing Edad ko Lang siguro. She's Waring formal attire. Like one of the secretary of this building.

"I'm sorry..." I just told. I was focused in my phone. Kasalanan ko din Naman I texted dad na nandito na ako Kaya Siguro Hindi ko napansin Yung babae.

"I'm fine." She just said. Sabay Kaming pumasok sa elevator.

Something in my heart felt uneasy. Anong meron!? Bakit ganito Ang pakiramdam ko!? Bakit Parang kinukuryente ako?

Then The girls phone rang.....

"Hello...." Her voice... Her voice really remind of someone.... Kanina Hindi ko Yun pinansin pero ngayon... Yung boses niya.. parang..

I want back to reality when I got my right lift. It's 40th floor definitely the last floor. Only my Papa having his office here. Secretary niya Kaya Ito? But His secretary has late thirties or early forthies.

"Yes I'm coming. Wait for me I'm on my way." Anang Ng magandang babae. Nauna siyang lumabas. Napansin Kong Hindi siya Ganoon katangakad maybe she is 5'4 in height but with her heels medyo tumangkad siya Ng kaunti. Ang lakad niya medyo pamilyar.. Ang likod niya I never seen her face but I heard her voice... Some of her really reminds me of someone.

Napabalikwas ako Ng magsasara Ng Ang pinto Ng elevator. Agad Kong nilisan Ang loob at tumungo akonsa opisina Ni Papa. Nakasabay ko Ng Bahagya Ang Ang dalagang maganda.

Nauna siyang pumasok Dahil tumunog Ang Cellphone ko at bingayan ko Yun Ng baling Dahil si Papa Ang may Text Doon. Tinatanong Kong nasan na ba ako agad ko namang sinagot.

Papa

Hijo, bilisan mo! Nandito na Ang lawyer ko ayoko Ng pinaghihintay Ang panauhin.

Nang mabasa ko Ang text Ni Papa ay agad akong nagmadali. Siguro Yung babae Kanina Ang Abogadong ipakilala sa akin ni Papa.

Binuksan ko Ang pinto at agad na bumungad sa akin Sina Papa, Isang lalaking Nasa late Thirties maybe he's 29 I don't know yet but his face was familiar to me and beside him a girl, the girl... That girl... Yung nakabanga ko Kanina. Nakakahiya siya pala Ang tutulong sa Amin Hindi man Lang ako nakapag apologies Ng maayos.

I about to talked Ng naunahan ako Ni Daddy.

"So finally you meet...." Anang Ni Daddy. Napabaling agad ako sa kaniya. "Again." Dugtong niya.

Nalito ako, Ngunit ayokong pangunahan ang kutob na lumulukob sa dibdib ko.

"Finally you meet Attorney, Attorney this is My son... I bet you know him!" Tila nang iinis na Sabi Ni Papa sa Lalaki at inilahad Ang kaniyang kamay sakin.

Tinangap ko iyon. So he's the lawyer of my Dad. I thought it was a girl. A women. Binago ba Ni Daddy Ang attorney niya?

We shook hands then Dad talked again. "This is Mister Jaime the Eligible Bachelor of Makati." Proud na sabi Ni Daddy. Well, Yet he's good looking as well but I'm better.

But wait... Jaime...? Siguro Naman Hindi siya Yung Jaime na kilala ko. Say mga Magazine or some classified ads right? Hindi siya Yun diba!? Because he is clean cut now the Jaime I know was having a long hair. Damn! Isiah! People can cut their hair.

"Hijo natigilan ka ata... "Si Daddy

"Hindi po Dad."

"Baka Kasi Nagwapuhan sa akin." Anang Ni Jaime.

Fuck you! Gwapo ka? Eh Kung iuntog Kaya kita! Sinabi ko na Lang sa isip ko. Ayoko Ng gulo!

"We'll see it." Hamon ko sa kaniya.

"Okey! Chill tayo!" Si Papa. "At nga pala hijo bago ko kalimutan Ang kasama Ni Attorney ay Isa ring Attorney. Kilala mo siya Actually." Sabi  Ni Daddy.

Nilingon ko siya. Napansin ko Ang pag ngiti Ng babaeng kasama Ni Jaime. She had her short hair, real black. She seems familiar... Very familiar.. nagkita na ba kami?

"Kilalang kilala mo siya." Ani Ni Jaime.

"Oh, Yes.." si Daddy ulit.. "This Is Mayor Issabella Khandria V. Cardines." Pagpakilala Ni Daddy.

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I don't wanna fall asleep. I still miss you babe. Ohhh! Hahahaha nabasa niyo diba?