I had this dream I was at my aunt's house. Sitting in the living room and from where I am sitting you could see into my cousin's bedroom. I don't know why but something tells me to go in there. So I do just that. I take the small walk to the room, slowly opening the door where I am leaded to my ex's room. My phone dings in my hand telling me I got a message and I see it's from my ex. More messages come in that are from him telling me he's sorry but I don't read them. I don't want to hear his apologies. I look up and he's sitting on his bed. He's crying but I don't do anything. He tries to reach out and grab my hand but I pull away, "Don't touch me." I tell him. He gets up and tries to apologize to me again but I cut him off. Yelling that I wish I never met him. I keep going and going but then stop. And that's when I wake up.
I don't know why I still have dreams of him. They're not dreams , more or so nightmares. I wake up terrified. I tell myself I am strong and more happy and in which I am. I am loving myself more and I can't wait to explore my life. I feel free. But something in the back of my head keeps thinking of him. I am not sure if this in normal because I never had a brake up before. But I just tell myself " if God wanted them in your life he would've kept them in your life." I also shouldn't be making myself feel less for a boy. When I know I am worthy of something greater. I know I can and will be better without him.
Have a good day now!
