Every Breath You Take : Ross and Rachel AU (Roschel)

butterfly

"Butterfly" - Mariah Carey

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside

"Mommy is Daddy going to die?" The little girl had tears in her eyes now. She had tossed her empty bowl into the trash and her ice cream free arms dangled at her sides.

"Come here baby." Rachel opened up her arms for her daughter. Their daughter. "No" she said firmly. "Daddy's time here isn't done yet."

Blindly I imagined I could keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Rachel cradled Emma in her arms. Both girls still had misty eyes, yearning for the most important man in their lives. "I'm scared Mommy."

"Me too baby." Rachel had a really really bad feeling in the pit of her stomach. She wanted to burst into tears. Of course, she couldn't— for two reasons: 1. it would scare her daughter even more 2. Ross wasn't there to hold her.

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly,
Butterfly.

Monica. Rachel dug through her purse for her cell and dialed her best friend. Monica had to know what's happening to her brother.

"Hey Rach! I just pulled up to the hospital. I got off work early is something wrong?" Rachel couldn't find the words. "Rach?"

"Mon..."

"What?! Is it Ross? What happened?"

"Mon h-he had a s-seizure."

I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage to be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will lead you back to me when you're ready to land

"Rach! Where is he? How is he?" Monica's voice shook as she stood over Rachel and her niece.

"I don't know Mon." Rachel burst into sobs, followed by Monica. The two friends and Emma embraced each other. The five year old was too young to understand. She only knew one thing-- something was wrong with her Daddy. Something bad was happening.

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly,
Butterfly

Monica's glassy eyes caught sight of what was wheeled into her brother's room. It made her want to throw up.

A defibrillator.

Rachel eventually laid her eyes on the scene Monica was looking at, horrified. The nurses didn't bother to close the door, causing the trio to run in.

"All clear."

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily

I can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye

For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

"Daddy!" Emmy innocently cried out for her father, not quite knowing what was happening. Rachel had dropped down to the cold tile floor.

"Ross!" Rachel cried out, her voice shaking from her sobs. Monica stood, crying as she watched a doctor shock her brother, trying to revive him.

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly,
Butterfly

"Ross, y-you can't l-leave me!" Emma held on to her mother who was in hysterics. "B-baby, Daddy can't leave us yet." she sobbed, holding on to her daughter. A shimmer of her engagement ring in the corner of her eye made her cry even harder. They hadn't even gotted married yet. "You promised we'd get married." She whispered through tears. "You promised"

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly,
Butterfly

"I-I'll never forgive you if y-you leave us R-ross. Wake up! Wake up goddamn it!" She cried out for her brother, still unresponsive. Her worst fear was being realized. Nothing had prepared her for this moment. He was her brother. The best big brother a girl could ever had. The first man to ever love her completely and unconditionally. But also the first man to ever hurt her this much.

So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly,

"Time of death, 5:32 pm."

Butterfly.