Secrets

Chapter 85

Louis' POV

I love Allison. I don't know what it is lately but I can't get enough of her. I just want to be with her every chance I can. Maybe this is what love is like? I don't really know. I've never been with someone like this till her. I just want her. I don't know what I would do if I lost her. I wouldn't be myself anymore. I wasn't myself when she was gone for a few days. I don't think I can go through that again. I don't even want to think about that. I should focus on her and her being happy. That's all I care about.

Seeing her wearing my clothes is one of the sexiest things she does. I love seeing her in them. I love that she's so comfortable that she doesn't even ask to wear them anymore. I'm okay with that. I mean we live together and I do want to spend the rest of my life with her. I know she deserves better. I'm just selfish. I don't want her with anyone else. I'm happy she doesn't want anyone else even though she probably should. Especially after the things I've done and told her about. I haven't even told her all of them. I know she would probably leave if I did tell her. Especially about everything with Lauren. Her and I hooked up one time when I was in college then when I came here she wanted to do that again. I know I need to tell Allison. I don't want to upset her. We deserve to be happy for a little bit. We don't get to stay happy very long most of the time. Someone always starts to come around and ruin it.

Allison's POV

Louis has stayed quiet most of the time in the car. He never stays this quiet. I know he's thinking about something. I kind of want to ask him what he's thinking about but I don't want to ruin today. I leaned over, kissing his cheek. I noticed him smile, squeezing my hand, "I love you, baby."

I can't help but smile when he says that, "I love you."

I do love him. I didn't know what love really was before him. If something did happen to us, I don't know if I would get over it. I don't want to think about that. I just need to think about the way things are now. 

After a few minutes he pulled into the grocery store parking lot. Honestly I'm tired of eating out all the time. I think it would be nice for us to stay home and I can make us some dinner. It's the least I can do since he pays for everything for me and he works. He shouldn't have to worry about having to do as much now that we live together. I should help out more now. I'm not sure what he's going to say to that since he always wants to do everything for me. I think it's cute how he always wants to do that for me. It can't always be like that. I want to do things for him too. 

I felt him kiss me hand before letting it go, getting out of the car. I smiled to myself, getting out. I love the way he treats me. It makes me happy knowing that I'm the only one that he's treated like this. I don't even want to think about him being with anyone like he is with me or him treating any of those other girls like he's treated me. I walked over to him as he intertwined our fingers again. I couldn't help but smile a little. I like when he does this. I wish we could be open like this all the time in public. I doubt anyone will be out today. I mean it's still snowing but not like it was before. I don't want to go to school tomorrow knowing that Sam is going to be there. I don't want to think about that. Louis and I should be all that matters right now. 

We walked inside and Louis grabbed a cart. I walked with him as we started walking down the aisle. It's kind of nice that both of us are out doing this. I just like being around him. I love him and I'm happy that we can go do things like this together. I know a lot of couples don't. Especially couples our age. Most of them don't live together like we do. I really need to stop comparing us to other couples. I know we're nothing like any of them. We probably have more than the average couple to deal with. That doesn't matter. I love him and I don't want to be with anyone else but him. I know he feels the same way. He hasn't hid any of that from me. We walked a few more feet as he stopped. He started looking at something. He looks so focused on this. I think it's cute. I wrapped my arms around him, looking up at him. He wrapped his arm around me, holding me close to him. I can't help but smile about how cute he is right now. I noticed him smile a little, looking down at me. I felt him move his hand into my back pocket, "Why are you looking at me like that?"