July 14, 2019
7:19pm
when I say the universe, I mean God /
when I say God, /
it is I /
the divine lies in the center of my plush crimson flesh / palms up, open, I am ready for divine mercy,
I watch myself fade away / as if in a trance, / in a beautiful dream /
("can't I stay here? won't you let me stay here?" I beg, in a pitiful stream of teary eyed words, at nothing. nobody. it's always nobody. a chorus somewhere in the background chants:
"unloved! unloved! unloved!")
I cut a silver of my flesh away / so the light may peek out / melt away in the soil /
I cannot be near you I cannot be near anyone /
melt away in the sun /
I am nothing I am nowhere / but a flicker of flame /
girl burned alive, / girl-shaped void, /
girl playing god
