Poetries & Stories

Mistakes and Judgments [TagLish]

MISTAKES AND JUDGMENTS;

“Their words is no difference with the society. It's killing me.”

“Akala mo kung sino”
“Ang perfect niya sa lagay na yan, besh”
“Hahaha Shira may mali oh”
“Gaga!”
“Akala ko matalino ka? Bat may mali?”
“Woy Shira! Nakakahiya ka! Pinagkatiwalaan ka ng coach natin. Ang dali dali lang niyan pero mali mali ka!”

And I was just standing in front of them, looking at them with my blank face. Tinignan ko ulit ang blackboard, kung saan ang mga sagot ko ay nakasulat. 5 numbers. 5 words. Pinasagutan sa akin ang tamang spelling sa bawat salita na binabanggit ni Ma'am. Bumalik ang tingin ko sa kanila ng patuloy pa rin sila sa pag tawa, at pang-i-insulto. And I guess, tama nga ako ng iniisip.

“1. Traitors”
“2. Bullies”
“3. Rebels”
“4. People”
“5. Sosaytie”

Sa kanilang ginagawa ngayon, it made me discover again one of the pain reality sa mundong ito. I challenge myself, I should prove to myself that hindi tama yung iniisip ko, but no. I wrote 'sosaytie' than 'society' to make them realize that they should help me than throwing a hurtful words. Wala lang naman sa akin, kasi sinadya ko itong gawin. Ginawa ko ito para magising sila na i-tama dapat ang mali at hindi dapat ito tinatawanan. But people nowadays, were blinded to the point na mas ini-emphasize pa nila ang kamalian ng tao than helping and correcting them.

“Ms. Shira, you can take a sit now sa ka-team mo.”
“Thank you, Ma'am”
“Lets's welcome the next contestant ”

Then, I realised, it is really a cruel world with a cruel reality. One mistake, then everybody will judge, without knowing the story behind. Ano nga ba ang tawag sa kanila? One sided judgemental people. Ang dami mo ngang ginawang maganda, mabuti, pero lahat ng iyon ay mawawala ng parang bula pag may nakita silang pangit o di maganda sayo o pagkakamali mo.

“Shira! My goodness! You disappointed me!”
“Hinahangaan ko siya noon, but now? No. Pinahiya niya pa ang school natin”
“Di talaga ako makakapaniwala! Ang simple lang ng society di talaga ako makakapaniwala! Ang simple lang ng society di niya pa naitama?”

I wanted to answer them na 'before you judge me, siguraduhin mo muna na perpekto ka para naman matamaan ako sa sinasabi mp' but I choose to stay quiet, ako ang may alam, at ayaw kong magkaroon ng gulo. And some point, yung mga taong akala mo'y mga totoong kaibigan mo, mga peke rin pala. Lalabas talaga ang totoong ugali pag may nahanap silang mali sayo.

One mistake, then people starts drag you down.
One mistake, then people starts judge you.
Pity, dahil sila pa ang nagmumukhang bobo at tanga.
Why judge? Kahit di pa alam ang totoo?
It is because, ang tingin agad nila sayo ay isang madumi na.
Good Image, one mistake, then hi dirty bad image!

“At saan ka pupunta?”
“Shira! Bumaba ka nga mas pinapahiya mo pa ang school natin”

And now, I was facing them again. Kinuha ko ang microphone at nagsimulang magsalita.

“I'm sorry for breaking this important event but I just can't take a sit there hanggang sa uminit ang upuan ko. Someone just told me to go up here, nangangati na ang dila ko sa mga sasabihin ko. I am proudly standing in front of you, because I hold what is right. Brave enough? I guess not.”, “I just wanted to express my thoughts and share it with you then”

“Isang mali lang, at lahat agad ang kalaban mo. Nangyari na sa akin yan kanina” napatigil ako ng may sumigaw

“So anong pinupunto mo? Na kami ang mali rito ha?!”

“I'm sorry to burst out your bubbles, but yeah mali ka nga. For all we know, it is the society who leads us now. We are just humans okay? We are just humans! We really do commit mistakes! Pero bakit ang dali dali mag judge? Perfect ka ba? Perfect ka? Hindi diba? You are afraid to face the truth because you are afraid to get hurt? A big no! You are afraid, because you are scared to be ashamed of. Wala ba kayong mga pinag-aralan? Di ko nilahat pero sana makikinig din kayo. Yung mali ko kanina? Everyone's making it a big deal, causing it more trouble, and adding up a burden insttead of helping? Helping to correct than helping to make it worse. Stupidity at it's finest!”

“Gusto kong maintindihan niyo ang punto ko na porque at nagkakamali, bibigyan niyo agad ng negatibong pahayag. Dahil di niyo alam, we don't know through judgements it can lead to depression, anxities or a suicidal thoughts at wala ng mukhang ipapakita dahil sa pagkakahiya. Di pareho ang mga tao, iba ang pag-iisip at iba ang pagkikilos. Hindi natin alam kung malaki o maliit na impact lang ito. We really can't tell. Kung ayaw niyong mangyari ito sa inyo, bakit niyo pa ito ginagawa? Don't do such things you don't want to experience, because what you do now will find its way back to you soon. Nobody is perfect. It really can't avoids to judge but please know your words. Be careful with your words. It can ruin people's image worst is iyong buhay din.”

“Choose to stay silent, because once you open your mouth, wala kang pinagkakaiba sa lahat, you just made a mistake without you knowing. Judge if you are already at His level.”