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I decided to be better
To get my life straight
Looking back now
It was already too late
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At the time I really wanted
To take life into my own hands
I needed to save myself
Instead of making demands
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So I sat at a new table
With kids I didn't know
Tried to appear relaxed
Not let my nerves show
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I asked to be friends
They politely agreed
They told me to speak up
To shout if I'm in need
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I thought this was great
My life would turn around
My expectations were too high
It should've been on the ground
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Because the kids were polite
They were so very kind
Too nice to turn me down
I wish they left me behind
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Because being told no
And getting turned away
Would've been better than
Than letting false hope stay
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We had nothing in common
And I'd often just tag along
Too afraid to say too much
And get this all wrong
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Because I wanted it to work
I wanted to be less alone
To stop staring at the world
Behind the screen of my phone
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I was happy with just you
I was content with one friend
Surely with more people
I wouldn't have to pretend
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Wouldn't have to pretend
To be happy when I'm not
I could smile with these people
And laugh a lot
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What a dream that was
A mere fantasy in my head
Because not once did they hear
A single thing that I said
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I'd tell them with honesty
I'm having a bad day
They'd just shrug it off
And said it was okay
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I'd tell them I feel alone
I want to hang out more
But their car had no room
It was built just for four
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Still I didn't make it
Into much of a big deal
I just stopped talking
Quietly ate my meal
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And so that lunch table
Became a silent grave
A tomb for the girl
Who nobody could save
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I tried really hard, really I did
But a truth made itself known
Sometimes you're less lonely
When you're alone.
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Poetry"My sad story begins the day it all ends. Our tragedy starts before we were friends." Told in poetry form, we follow the story of an anynomys girl to find out what caused her death. **** "What I like about this is that we know how it ends. We're not...