Chapter 18

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I’m speechless. If I could say anything, the only words I could say right now are just, I can’t believe this. He is such a fighter. He is awake. He amazes me. He is amazing, I love him to the moon and back, what can I say? 

A smile appears on his weak, yet at the same time now awake face, “Are you just going to stand there and tease me with your cuteness?” He chokes out of his breathe. “I-Ian. It’s...it’s really you.” I say, as I slowly walk closer towards him. He giggles slightly, “Yeah. Well, I think it’s me. Right?”

I walk closer towards him, as he extends his hand out towards me, “Anthony. It’s ok.” He reassures me. Tears begin falling from my face, “It’s….it’s you.” I still say in awe. He chuckles, “Just shut up and kiss me already.” He teases, as I lean down and kiss him. “You take my breathe away.” I say, as I break our kiss. He giggles lightly once more, as he rubs the tears off my cheeks, “And you cry more than people did at the Fault In Our Stars.” He jokes. I sigh, “Oh Ian, you scared me to death.” I say, as I scoot a chair over next to his bed. “I’m sorry. But I’m ok now.” He says, as we once again interlock our fingers together.

“It would’ve been nice to have woken up to see your face though, not gonna lie.” He says quietly. Ian freezes,  I suddenly hear my voice, well Reflections voice behind me, “HERES A LITTLE TRANSLATION, YOU SHOULD’VE BEEN WITH HIM INSTEAD OF BEING AT HOME DRINKING YOUR PROBLEMS AWAY, ALREADY BACK TO YOUR OLD HABITS? SELFISH PRICK.” I flinch, as before I know it, Ian is moving again. He furrows his eyebrows, “Sorry, I’m glad you’re here now though!” He must’ve noticed the spooked look in my eyes, I sigh, “No I know I get it, I’m sorry baby I just..” I begin to feel a lump in my throat. He begins caressing my hand, “No I get it you were going through a lot I-” “It’s my fault.” I say through my sobs. 

He weakly sits up, “Anthony, don’t say that!” He retorts. “No but it’s true..” I manage to say through my sobs. I realize I shouldn’t be doing this to him, the man just woke up from a coma for fucks sake. Get your act together now Anthony god damn it. Just be glad he’s alive.

I collect myself again as I see Ian with a worried look in his eyes, “I’m sorry.” I say. “Anthony, never blame yourself for what happened again.” He begins to scratch his head, “As a matter of fact I have no idea how this even happened..” He muttered to himself. I shake my head, “Don’t worry about it now cutie, ok? You’re alive and that’s all that matters. Now lay back down, you shouldn’t be sitting up.” I tell him, as I softly lay his head back down onto his pillow. “Lay here with me?” He asks. I can’t refuse, look at those damn eye

I lay down on his hospital bed, gently wrapping my arms around him, as I feel him kissing my head, “I love you so much..” He whispers, “I’m sorry for scaring you like that.” He whispers. “Babe don’t worry about it. As I said before, you’re alive, and that’s all that matters.” I begin to rest my eyes, as I unexpectedly fall asleep without even trying. 

Nightmare

I am in a room surrounded with clocks. I have no idea why there are clocks everywhere. I hear loud ticking pierce into my hearing. Suddenly, I see Reflection again, “WE ALL GO AT SOME POINT KID.” He screams, as I suddenly see Ian. “Ian!” I yell out towards him. He can’t hear me. I see him running. What’s going on? I try to run towards him but, no luck. It’s as if my feet are stuck in this position. Like, I’m stuck in drying concrete. It’s all so hard to describe. I see Ian getting sucked into this endless void suddenly, “OH MY GOD NO! IAN!” I scream. Suddenly, I hear his screams of agony and suddenly, nothing. “ITS YOUR FAULT.” Reflection suddenly appears in my face. “No! It wasn’t me I-!” “YOU KILLED YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND. YOU DIDN’T SAVE HIM. AND NOW YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES FOREVER!” “No! It’s impossible!” I scream with tears flowing out of my eyes.

End Of Nightmare

I feel shaking, “Anthony wake up!” I hear Ian yelling. I shot my head up, “Oh….Ian.” I hold onto him. I notice that my tears from the nightmare I must’ve just been having are soaking him. He wraps his arms around me. “Oh my god baby it’s ok.” He kisses my head, “It was all a bad dream.” he reassures me. I finally calm down, “Sorry..I uhm. Crazy week and uh….not enough sleep aren’t a good mix.” I whisper. He nods, “Yeah you fell asleep in seconds.” He says, “Now that that’s anything new or anything.” He weakly smiles, as I return one back, “Ian…” “Yeah baby?” “Please never die..” I whisper. I know that request is stupid, since that is impossible. “Obviously!” Reflection flashes in front of my face once more, and leaves right after. I sigh. I see Ian weakly laughing, “Well no promises but I’ll try.” I giggle, “Ok, dumb request. Can I make a more realistic one this time?” I ask. “Go for it.” “Can you please promise me that you’ll never leave me?” Ian sighs peacefully, “Anthony. That question was somehow stupider than the first one.” He says, as he caresses his fingers on my face, “Of course I’ll never leave you. That’s impossible.” I smile, as I kiss him once more. 

“I do have a question for you now, however.” He begins. “And whats that?” I ask him. He looks me in the eye and asks “You mentioned this Reflection type thing in the dream? What’s that?”

(A/N) I don't know what to say! I've got nothing! Hope you've enjoyed! :D

(A/N) I FOUND MY NEW FAVORITE CHAPTER (btw Reflection's mine. MINE I TELL YOU. WE ARE GOING TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE BABIES BECAUSE YES)

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